ironies of life!!!

2009-01-24T10:43:00.003+08:00

recently i was watching this movie... its called majestic... featuring non other than the yes man star Jim carrey haha.... well as to how the whole movie runs, i m not too sure... but the gist of it goes along the lines of this guy(carrey) being accused of being a communist and being brought on trial... but juz b4 that... he gets into an accident n ends up in a totally laidback town with amnesia(the sickness where someone loses all his memories??) yup

I guess during the movie.... it got me thinking bout many many many things... i guess i wonder... if supposing someone were to lose his memory... den be introduced into an environment where apparenty ppl think of him as being a totally good person... where b4 that... he waas somethin sort of like a jerk... or how abt a person who made many bad decisions b4 gettin amnesia... someone who feels that his life is like a total waste... how will he feel now? will he have a totally new personality>? even becoming a better person than he ever thought possible?? If someone was able to forget everything bout his past... the good times... the bad times... the regretful instances.... juz how will he be changed as a person??

Or for that matter a fact... supposing that someone is a christian... but due to the losing of memories... he forgets that... wat will happen? i guess there are many possibilities for such things... ..... Sure the person may end up being diff person... or in the movies... either becoming a hero or the villain... .... den i guess the next question really triggers my interest... supposing after some time being a different person.. mayb living a more meaningful life... freed from the chains of the past... and he suddenl rmbs who he was in the past....knowing juz wad kind of a man he is... in other words... wen our past catches up with us... which life will that person choose? who he was b4? or who he is after... which identity will he choose? which will inadvertly affect his entire life... friends... family... r/s.... Even who he believes in himself as a person...

haha... sometimes... i wonder... if i were to lose all my memories in the past... den mayb become an entirely different person... forgetting all the ppl in my past... my religion.. my character.... my personality... my regrets.... my accomplishments... my strengths.... my weaknesses... being an entirely new person... what will i do? if i were to remember my past once more... juz wad will i choose? to remember my past? and accept who i was b4 n turn back to the old me that the ppl around me rmb me as? or will i choose to forget who i was in the past.. n move on... staying as the person who i have now become? whether good or bad? n with wad i choose.. how will my life change again..........haha of course that is somethin that not every1 really wanna experience... but when such circumstances befall us... what will we choose? guess its a mystery that can nvr be answered.......................................................................................

2008-12-02T22:05:00.002+08:00

haha back to post once more...... this week can be said to a week i m always looking forward to haha.... guess u can call it a week of freedom haha.... being the only one at home n all haha.... cos my mom n sis went overseas so woooohooooo..... feels good haha.....

its funny how ppl like freedom so much that sometimes, its worth fighting n dying for haha.... sometimes i wonder if human nature is all abt being free?? we are always looking for ways to free ourselves..... even the bible is about being set free..... like a bird in the sky or even a fish in the ocean.... i guess all i can say ts that its somethin ppl r willing to give up everything for... haha

haha welll another reason to rejoice in my blog today is that finally.... after so many failures n such... this morning.... i FINALLY PASSED MY IPPT haha.... i was like woah.... over the world... so of u might ask... y so happy? its juz some stupid physical test!!!! but haha... to me... it showed how hard work n hard training finally helped me pass all stations... including my dreaded SBJ haha... n i really really really gotta thank God for tis triumph..... for without his help... i wont even be close to passing haha.... welll thats all the crapping for today... n heres wishing Marvin a Happy Birthday!!!!! n Nick... although 2 days in adv haha.... Happy Birthday!!! well thats all folks... till nxt time haha....

2008-11-16T16:52:00.002+08:00

haha came back from hong kong & finally got the time to blog once more lol.... well i guess for my hk trip, i gotta say it was pretty fun since it was the 1st time i went overseas without my family lol... & i experienced many things & of course saw many things as well... haha...

If there is 1 thing i miss bout hk... it gotta be the food & the cheap stuff haha.... i mean it... u can like eat food over there that is cheaper if not the same price as Singapore food, but the quality regardless of the price is always there haha.... so i can say i was very impressed... haha not to forget that wen i went to Macao, the casinos there were a real eye opener haha... casinos like the Venetian, or even Sands... there were like so many nice things to see haha..... well if any of u go to hk.. don forget to try the egg tarts there haha n the pork chop burger haha... i simply loved it beyond compare haha....

thinking back... its now november haha... n i m really really glad hah... cos i m almost at my 1 yr mark in NS haha... so ya... almost halfway thru it all man... hmm.. its gonna be a quiet 2 months now... haha... i juz hoped that i can spend my end of the year doing quality stuff haha.... kike planning my leave... cos gotta clear... not that i have many days to clear haha.... well seems that the A lvls is almost over... so haha... i m sure my frenz out there are pretty glad at this point... i noe i was last yr at this point haha... as for the results haha.... i guess i juz left it at that till the time came haha... but well.. wadzz past is past...so cant brood over it haha... ok guess thats all the things i can think of sayin now haha...cya

2008-10-21T23:20:00.002+08:00

hiya... so wad can i say bout these past few weeks? tiring haha... on sat we signed the covanent... n well i really hopes this bonds the cell grp more than before haha.... but i guess i can really see the bond growing... for example.. we start hanging out beyond church timings... many a time proposed by shi feng... ms 4.0... n seriously the last person i will ever expect haha... on sun i can happily say that i conquered another milestone... haha... n i m glad that i did not run away at the last min which seriously i was planning to big time haha...

wad is the milestone??? well its taking part in the real run haha... n i was glad to say i completed the 15km run haha.... although the timing was not impressive.. a humbling 1 hr 46 mins... but i was really proud that i managed to run it finish haha.... o n to add to that... on Monday i went to play the arcade, actually the hunting game which the guys r well aquainted with haha... n i managed to get 1st n 3rd position in the wolf ranking... marvin if u r reading this... thks for introing the game haha... n nick... erm... better luck nxt time??? haha....

haha guess the topic i was wondering tis week was the fact of whether everythin that happens happens by the choices we make/?? or was it alr determined by God's will... i mean seriuosly sometimes i find sermons rather confusing... i mean supposing everything we leave it up to his way... that is wad we agree on in placing since we dont noe wad happens the nxt day.... n wen things go well we always take it for granted... but wen we make mistakes n bad unexpected things happen... i mean.. did it happen due to our choice?? as christians we question ourselves,... was that God's will for me?? for that bad thing to happen? or whether my choice altered His will n the way things turned out? n if it comes to a point that we think like this... can we say that we really leave things to God? or are we the ppl responsible for our destiny??

haha.... guess its somethin i don think i will find an ans to soon... but well i welcome any ideas on this haha.... well thats all for now... n hopefully i do ok for my ippt tmr haha...(fingers crossed)

2008-09-30T00:36:00.002+08:00

after a long break here i am to blog again...... the reason i m blogging today is well haha... basically because i will be getting back my bariam test results tmr morning.... i dunno how will things turn out except that i noe that wadever happens, it happens for a reason.... on saturday, the sermon went somewhere along such lines... wad will you do wen things spin so wildly out of control that u lose track of wad u r doin.... wen u come to a situation wen u face a prob bigger than any you have faced before... seriously... i feel that the worries i have for tmr are unfounded.. i mean compared to so many ppl i noe out there that face harder things daily, wad m i to say that i am at a baricade in front of me?? haha my probs seems so small...

but s[eaking of it... i guess tis feel weeks in ns where u find u have nothing to do n u r rotting away... u cant help but think bout life seriously u noe haha.... 1 thing i learnt is how fragile we r as humans... fragile not juz physically but i feel more mentally.... ahaha... but den again somehow i feel that may be how we survived so long... mayb God build us to be fragile sentimental creatures... i mean that is the difference we have compared to all other creations n come to think of it... thats how we stand out isnt it?? haha think bout it?

haha mayb its time i changed how i blogged... i guess i m now movin away from writing a blog where i tell ppl what i go thru daily.. rather... a blog where i guess i can juz talk bout thoughs instead... hopefully i can add a philosophical touch to it haha... not that anyone reads it haha... sometimes i juz feel this blog is dead haha... mayb i ought to tell more ppl bout my blog haha... which leads to another question... y do ppl blog? is it an avenue to express one's thots? or rather a platform u hope ppl will see u in your inner state which u r not brave enough to show in reality?? n wen no one bothers to read what u r hoping they will read... wad den?? haha i wonder.....

2008-08-26T21:26:00.002+08:00

aft a short time of 2 weeks... i can say that these 2 weeks are the most painful days of my lfe... n i do mean literally as well...for those that noe y.. plz do keep hush hush bout it... ytd i went for the barium check... even now i m still feeling the effects of it though... n although i wish i dun have to go thru it again... i guess i did make the most of it... i see for once the fragility of life haha... 1 day u can be competely well... the next.. u dun noe wad will happen... althiugh there are some funny experiences...like this nyp gal i met... who happens to be doing attachment at the hospital haha... finally i meet someone who really did go on to do radiotherapy altough i rarely heard of it haha..

well the results of my result wil be out on a mth... till den i can onli wait ba.... haiz... somehow now i feel like life is really boring u noe... like veryyday i m doin the same thing over n over n over again... on weekdays i go to work... i mwwt up wif frenz... saturdays i go to church... haoz... its like my whole life revolves around tis vicious cycle... that sometimes i juz wish i can get out of this.... but i guess my life is drawn into it...i wonder if a day will come wen i can juz put down all the things i have n juz do somethin different... juz getting away from all i have here.. not caring bout anything that is...

wadever happens... i will never noe... if my life is to be such that i m walking around in a circle... i juz pray that it will be a beautiful circle...if not.... i juz wanna break free..............................................question is if that is possible.....

2008-08-10T15:38:00.002+08:00

hey.... i m back.... ytd national day n today its finally 1 of the more relaxing weekends i havb had for the weekends..... y? becos i m finally able to juz slack at home..... on fri i went to pick nick up from the airport.. it has been a long time since i have been to the airport.. n hearin wad nick had to say about his trip, i m kinda excited to even experience such a trip of my own.... either way... guess my trip to hong kong will be my 1st independent trip ever... n if all goes well.... hopefully i will leave at oct hehe..... hmmm... ytd we also went to pray for singapoer... but wad i felt really was very meaningful was pastor daniel saying that the church had to be united... i fully agreee wif him on that one haha... i mean i don get y some ppl like to distinguish wad kind of a christian m i?? whether anglican.... or wad... i mean does it really matter??? i juz don get tis ppl sometimes u noe... the way they fight among themselves bout whose church is god n which church are not...

haha but ytd i was shocked esp wen my cell grp went to mac t lot 1 n on the way out towards church i actually ran into aisyah.... haha she told me she was goin for a wedding so thats y she was wearing the traditional malay clothing..haha actually tis was the 1st time i saw her wearing that.. cos normally wen we hanged out she always dressed very.... erm like normal lor haha... dunno hw to put it... den in the nite i ran into 1 of my junior from pj... think she in j2 now... oh n my ex classmatee... reinstating once again juz how small the world really is u noe haha.... well enough of crapping for today... tmr if all goes well i will have a seoul garden meal for half price haha.... so lets see wad happens de.. cya ppl

2008-07-31T23:38:00.002+08:00

wow... wad a week... i dunno bout u ppl but i guess i had a very eventful week.... n i guess the qn i find myself asking is wad have i learnt... ppl say life is about standing up n moving on.... sometimes i question juz how well can 1 simply move along... as though nothing ever happened... i for 1 have always found an alternative for such stuff.... as another week has passed.. so has 1 more chapter of my life... i have no idea wad is to come... neither do i bother to comprehend all that is and is to come... cos life is simply unpredictable i guess... n inspired by this fren of mine... i lately started this new way of expressing myself... but i will never tell anyone who ask what it is haha... so dun bother...

well tis week i think is gonna b the most times i go to church in a week.... but nope... on tues nite n wed nite... i went for this church event hosted by this prof... although the reason i went was cos my fren at work dragged me along... wad i can say is that it was fruitful in a way.... oh... i guess its also the 1st time i stepped into an anglican church as well.... so wad can i say.... i experienced things that i somel i did not experience elsewhere... i guess pastor dan. is right in sayin every church has its own way of experiencing n working for God... well thats it for tonite... n i guess till nxt time...

o btw... nick is comin back on the 8 of aug nxt fri... his flight is arriving at 745pm.... so... welcome back nick!!!!! n for those who wanna fetch him... can always ask me for details haha.... cya den...

relevation i seek to find

2008-07-20T11:09:00.003+08:00

Bread Upon the Waters

Cast your upon the waters, for after many days you will find it again.
Give portions to seven, yes to eight, for you do not know what disaster may come upon the land.
If clouds are full of water, they pour rain upon the earth.
Whether a tree falls to the south or to mthe north, in the place where it falls, there it lie.
Whoever watches the wind will not plant;
whoever looks at the clouds will not reap.
As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you do not understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.
Sow your seed in the morning and let not your hands be idle, for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well.

Remember Your Creator While Young
Light is sweet, and it pleases the eyes to see the sun.
However many years a man may live, let him enjoy them all.
But let him remember the ways of darkness, for there will be many.
Everything to come is meaningless.
Be happy, young man, while you are young, and let you heart give you joy in the days of your youth.
Follow the ways of your heart and whatever your eyes see, but know that for all these things God will bring you to judgement.
So then, banish anxiety from your heart and cast off the troubles of your body, for youth and vigor are meaningless.

Ecclesiastes 11: 1-10

this is the 1st time i actually quote a verse from the bible. the reason is simple really... the reason i put it down is because this was the 1 chpt that has been in my mind all these while.. guess for a few months... but a verse i did not really understand the meaning... but if its a verse God keeps tellin me... i can onli guess there is a secret meaning... and after all the events that has been happening these few weeks in my life especially yesterday morning... i can actually say that i have finally understood a little of wad God is telling me thru this verse... & its true... mayb He knew all along and was preparing for me all these time... sincerely i cannot say...

recently there are a few events that i regret deeply how i handled... i juz could not take it anymore and it juz came out on saturday morning.... I wasnt really ready or really up there wen i went to church... but the sermon yesterday really hit the spot at the question i had been asking myself all these while...the difference between building character & reputation... Finally i can safely say that the one thing i had been searching for since i became a christian has finally been revealed... for so many yrs i have lost it... that i actually forgot wad it was... i actually felt life was really not really there... i was not really living my life... i could not really commit myself to anything because i knew i was not entirely ready.... sometimes wen the world cannot accept who we really are.. we end up being wad the world wants us to be... & i lost sight of who i was on the inside..

After wad happened ytd... it was like suddenly all the truth abt me were all said to me.... n by tis person who God truly knew i will be afected by...

That person is right and i hope that my actions now will show that i can change.. that i can find my character once more... & not living like everything is out of my hands..i guess i hav tis urge to apologise to the ppl i hurt because i was lost in life.. although i guess its too late for some now... because i lost a part of me... it ended up in me missing out so many things in life...but wad is done is done.. n i guess i can onli hope that wen i do find out who i really am inside... i can finally find this peace within one self that so many have seeked... but few of us ever find..................................................

2008-07-07T20:28:00.004+08:00

guess who???
me juz b4 ns

i guess some of u might b wondering y r those pics up haha.... well on sat we had to bring our famuily photo... n well @ chrch i juz nice saw some ppl who brought photos of them wen they were young haha... so i went home... n i dug up some pics haha... n yes... that baby at the top is me... think bout 10 mths old... den its followed by me wen i was 6 i think hhaha... well i couldnt really find a pic where i was alone recently... so that pic had to do.... i guess i can say it feels kinda strange lookin @ yourself haha n thinkin back... i was tis small???

well... besides that... i also made a decision on my course of study.... so starting from tis week for the next 10 mths... i will b a very busy man haha... cos i m currently taking a part time course... in mass comm.... ya... thats my decision... but not my choice in career... haha... i noe some ppl will say y not psychology.... but well... i m still taking a degree in psychology... i guess wad i m sayin is that... this is my back up plan in case i m not accepted into psychology....

aftetr seeing so many things happening... i can finally say i see the impt of a back up plan... cos u nvr noe hw things will end up u noe... ya... so that practically makes my mondays & weds tiring cos i study till 10pm.//.. but no pain no gain.,,.. i juz pray i wil have the strength to go thru tis.... ya... well thats for today... n a little update bout my life... hope u ppl enjoy the photos!!! cya:)

2008-06-24T21:27:00.004+08:00

well... its been a long long time since i last updated... n l can say i experienced alot in these 2 weeks haha... but to get things started let me update u on the amazing race that my church organised....

i can say it was a gd experience for me... during the amazing race as it was the 1st time i was a grp leader in church haha... so for once i attended the leaders meeting on fri haha... yup... my grp had hsien tze, sasha, rachel(a newcomer haha), lora, oli, ziyi, yani, shi feng and yu ting... of course including me... at 1st i guess i was pretty nervous cos i didnt noe hw cooperative my grp will b but well... they were the most cooperative bunch i guess haha... we were told to bring 2 sets of clothes... so i was prepared to get down n dirty haha...

we went to like 4 diff places haha... n during the race we actually got lost... no not in finding the place... but upon reaching the destination, in finding the game marshall haha.... esp at imm haha.....grrr.... n it was both tough mentally n physically for me as well haha... for e.g.. how many of u noe that imm stands for international merchandise mall???? n i nearly died at rock climbing haha... while i felt good bout finishing it...(mic bay said it was the advanced wall... but i kinda doubt it haha) i came down wif sore fingers that was swollen the entire week lolz...

but i guess the worst of all was the game the slider..... where i was the base of the human ladder we formed... needless to say i came out 1 of the dirtiest aft the game haha... n there was so much mud on my body u would think i m naked from afar haha.... yup... that bad.. n the whle time the yi ppl were filming us... so we had to like act lah u noe lolz..... welll all in all while we didnt win the amazing race... we certainly didnt lose... so really gotta thank God that we came out fine... other than a little cuts n briuses here n there lolz.....

on the previous sunday i went to tis uncle hse in the nite lolz... while the food was good, wad i really did that amazed me was that i actually joined that uncle's son and daughter n niece for a karoake session haha..well i guess it was alrite since they were all round my age as well.. while i was hesitant at 1st... well... aft getting the mike shoved in yr face by the 3 of them... u would start singing as well haha.... n i actually sang chinese songs... haha.... while my mom complimented my voice... i kinda felt i wasnt a really gd singer haha... cos i can tgo too high if not i will zao xia haha....

last week i watches loads of movies haha.. actually onli 2... don mess wif the zohan n get smart... i will highly reccommend get smart over zohan cos 1... i felt it was funnier... evan n i kept laughing thruout the movie haha.... n 2... its more worthwhile as a comedy lol... hahah oh oh nt forgetting the sermon on sat haha... which had to do wif misusing God's name haha.... like i for 1 m gonna control my thots n words haha... cos wad i say will afect hw i m looked upon as a christian lolz... while some of the things i said b4 were said in ignorance... i believe now that i noe wad not to say... i oughta control my tongue as well hahaha...

well thats bout all so far... now kinda tired n wanna crash in juz a little earlier haha.... esp since my muscles r aching haha.... nope.... nt from the rock climbing but from the trip to the gym i went earlier on haha.... so ya... here is wishing all ppl wif examinations all the best n GOD BLESS...haha.... haiz... busy day tmr... hope i can write down everything on time tmr for the meeting since i will b takin minutes... grrr.... well cya ppl!!!

2008-06-05T21:51:00.002+08:00

well back again,.... n i guess i got a happy ending thing to blog abt today... well last nite i went out wif my dad... it was all fun n cool n all... wadz more i actually ate a pretty good buffet haha... got sashimi.... crayfish... good prawns... o n my fav..... a tiramisu cheezecake!!! if mic bay ate it i think she might go crazy haha... but well wen we came home my mom stopped us n we all had a talk... or rather it was btw my sis n my mom... so i was like the middleman... soon.... tension was high n i was thinkin,.... wad the heck m i doin there... but den at the end.... i dun noe wad came over me... but i juz started talkin to my sis.... n like... i dunno.. for a long time now... i nvr did dare giv ppl advice... cos i felt really not gd enough to... cos i guess... havin probs of my own... who am i to do it??? but somehow i juz helped my sis... n while i hav no idea wad i said... it helped her n i actually got to experience recouncilation again.. n somehow i guess i learnt somethin else... sometimes we may make mistakes... n ppl lose their trust in us... n while we may change... we may get frustrated wen we find that ppl still don believe we hav changed...

but at the end of the day... its not others but ourselves that need to prove to others that we can b trusted again.... n in the end.. it does nt matter if the world does ntbelieve us? rather... as long as we hav a clear conscience,, we can b sure that GOd will always noe the truth... to tell u the truth... i actually felt good bout myself for once in a long long time... after finally being able to help again last nite... n i guess... thats more than enough for me.............................................

well i saw tis bell on the bus n i actually was kinda alarmed bout pressing the button haha... thks to the emergency use underneath... but well.. i guess it was kinda interesting to me hhaha.... enjoy:)

2008-05-25T21:56:00.003+08:00

the desert i was talkin bout... at the beginning... n below... 10 mins later haha n alot to finish.. sian liao haha
haha jac kena BRAIN FREEZE!!! LOL...
finally we about to finish... n my stomach cant take it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!

back... ytd... we celebrated fiona bdae... which shi feng planned haha... she was surprised so i guess it was a success... ya n well seein the probs she is facing... hope she will stay strong haha n wad we did hopefully helped cheer her up a little... at least..marvin wanted to talk to me bout some prob i faced... so bro... really appreciate it.. but i m ok alr.. haha ya... so thks for the concern dude!!!. aft that i went to meet my frenz haha..on the way i actually met my ex sch mate shi min haa.. she really changed alr... n i actually realised she lives quite near to me haha... wonder if we will meet again lolz.... but nth much haha xcept i saw my cousin aft a long time.so it was pretty wierd lol.....

today i went to this australia uni open house... n ya... i saw many uni... n 1 really caught my eye... murdoch uni... somehow tis kinda stood out from the rest... i wonder y... haha.... well i will see if this is wad He wants... since ya i got rejected from all the spore unis.... but either way... since i was wif jac.... haha in the aft we went to chill... b4 goin back to work tmr haha... ya we went to cineleisure played pool n we went to tis hk cafe i think n had ouur meal there...

den jac ordered tis desert haha... like a castle lol... we had a hard time eating it lah lolz... at the end... we both had brain freeze n were like totally full haha... but it was nice though lol... n when we finished it... we felt really happy haha.. dunno y?mayb we crazy le... till nw i still shivering lolz.. from the cold,.. so its back to work again... well cya ppl... for ppl wif exams all tjhe best... those wif hols.. good for ya...cya ppl!

2008-05-19T20:26:00.002+08:00

i've tried my best... i've done all i could... but i guess to u... good will never b enough.... sometimes... sometimes i wonder... y?? y muz u put me down in all that i do... in all i wanna b? m i really so bad?? that i m not strong enough to handle wad is happening? to comprehend wad i have to face in the future? i noe that i m not that strong... n sometimes i wonder y shld i put in so much effort?? wen all my efforts r never enough for u... all i hope.. is that u will tell me that its enough... that u r proud of me?? i noe that i m not as intelligent as the rest... not as fast... mayb even naive to u.... but u noe wad... if thats who i m to u... all i can say is that i m sorry... sorry that i m not the person u wanted me to be... ok! SORRY...

2008-05-13T11:34:00.002+08:00

well... tis is the 1st time in a long time u will c me blog on a tuesday haha... ya.. i m on leave tis week... so i will start work proper next tues also haha... well... i finally noe my posting... but i will b workin at thomson around that area... although its a good thing i got a direct bus there so its not that bad.... man i gotta say... its a big difference for me payin bus concession now compared to a long time ago... last time i was a student... i onli paid 27.50... now i gotta pay 61 bucks!!! n that is higher than poly ppl lah... lucky them grrrr...... but the gd thing is that i finally noe the feelin of havin my own office haha... workin directly under tis officer... basically i m somethin like a secretary haha...

on pop day... i can say it was the day we were all wAitin for... n thank God everythin went swell... except tis caogeng guy who fainted haha... he was the onli guy lah.. on thurs in the morn we went to de-kit... which means clearing out the stuff haha... n for my bunk... it became a fun session... since the whole floor of our room was wet... we basically played like there was no tmr... n i was tao pok by my frens lah... imagine 5 fat guys lyin on top of u...sandwichin u between the floor... but well... everyone got their just desert nonetheless..haha... in the nite i went to seoul garden wif my squad mates so ya... we celebrated...

on fri my squad had a bbq at east coast park haha... so it was great to have a gathering once more haha.....ya gonna miss those jokers haha...the funniest was i saw jason's(the acjc one) twin bro justin haha... damn funny... i was eating my food wen i saw jason walkin from the carpark... i found it strange that he wore a different shirt n i rmb him cookin also... den that guy waved at me... so i waved back wif my eyes following him... suddenly in my view there were 2 jasons!!!! i was like wad the!!! i thot i seein double den i rmb he had a bro haha... wow...wad an experience..., n since i wil b stuck wif him for this 2 yrs since he was sent to the same department as me!!!! mayb its GOd plan...

well...on last sat... where we celebrated mic bay bdae... at 1st say wanna do it on vesak day so that wont dirty the church... but we still dirtied it nonetheless haha... y?? well i simply suggested puttin her cake at her face cos haha it looked like a pie... next thing i noe.. suyin really did it haha...next thing i noe... well the bdae gal slammed cake at my face..fiona also lah..i also dunno y
? i so innocent lolz...i also had fun chasing li xin to the toilet to make him haha so ya.. well guess we had fun... cleaning up of course... i rmb wen i went home my face was like so oily haha..

well i wonder wad to do tis week... most likely juz relaxin n buyin stuff haha.... n savin my money haha... since now i no more free food lolz... well.. thats it for now...so cya soon....

ps.hope the uni will reply bout somethin soon...

i will rmb i always have a choice

2008-05-04T10:20:00.003+08:00

after some time... i m back again... next week is my pop... which means that i will b posted out alr... as to wad will i b doin... guess wont b sayin... except its a 9 to 5 job workin for someone lor... and as the pop comes... its also time for me to keep a promise tat i had made...y???

the reason is becos i once told God that while i didnt really want the post i m at... but if it is his will that i will b doin it... i will do it... n keep the promise that i hav been running away from for these few months... mayb some of u will realise that i may b a little different this few months... well... its cos i dunno... i guess i m finally tired of wearing a facade wen facing ppl... this few months has been one of the toughest months of my life... it can b considered one of my most down moments... other than the bad results of my As... and as how mic bay had said on how uncertain my life was... i also learnt some things bout my past as well... how my mom actually told me some things that i didnt wanna noe... but i had to noe in order to prepare in the future...its really complicated and somehow i doubt i can do it? but still... it has to come i guess..

i really wanna take tis chance to thank the ppl who has been so patient wif me tis few months.. n actually accompanying me wen i needed a break... even though i noe they have a very busy life... ppl like marvin... jac... will... haha well u guys noe who u r...

as to the promise i made? well i gave him my word that if i really got this post.. it will mean that he wants me to forget bout everythin in the past... n have a new focus in life... that i will hav to let go of everythin and everyone that will prohibit a change... as the movie i watched ytd... second chance.. its time i leave it completely to him n take tis 2nd chance myself..not juz for him... but myself as well...

i myself feel that tis will b pretty hard.. but as the bible says... trust him n fear nothing but the God almighty right? haha.. soi'ss see how tis goes... well if u got to read tis post... mayb u r lucky... mayb not haha... i leave it up to u.. well cya all..

2008-04-20T17:08:00.002+08:00

back to blog after an absence haha... well... i have finally reached a point where i m 2 weeks away from my pop... a term ns ppl r familiar with.... n i cant wait for the 7 of may haha... when i can finally leave hta... come to think of it i have come quite far... finally passed my law exam which is wad i will say a complete miracle... so praise god for that haha... as the sayin goes... everything that has a beginning has an end... about to leave this band of brothers n who noe wad awaits me?? with a future so uncertain as mic bay has been tellin me... i hav no idea wad lay ahead... all that i noe is that many of my past dreams lay broken n i guess i m a little lost or overwhelmed on where i m now...

guess 1 thing in life is letting go n moving on... at least i m not alone on tis... hopefully the next time i blog i wil have good news to share haha... but for now... i m juz watin,,, n hopin that drill does not kill me 1st... basically my life now is drill from morning to evening...so its pretty boring haha... but wad to do? i guess the poly ppl n jc ppl on the othetr hand r startin to step up in wad they r doin haha... whether new semester or mid yr exams haha... i feel for them lolz....

thats all this time.. i wanna watch tv now haha... a luxury i love haha.. so cya ppl...

2008-03-23T15:12:00.001+08:00

well... ytd at church we were asked to think of what would my life be if i wasnt a christian... hmmm... while others had a lot of comments of me... i guess i couldnt help but think bout it myself... well for starters... i would probable dye my hair red haha.... ya... i always wanted to do that haha... dunno y hehe... n among others... guess mayb i will b spendin more time wif my frenz cos i will b free on sats... who noe??? i may become a clubbing freak as well haha... wonder if that is scary haha... but 1 thing i noe is that i will nvr turn to smoking hah... y??? cos i totally hate smoking... n i guess m a little allergic to it ahahaha.... but guess... if i wasnt a christian... i may never noe many of the close frenz i hav made today as a result....n who noes wad my life wif my mom would have been now?? i nvr wanna find out... well... i guess wad i can say is that life is pretty fast for me now... especially wif my preparations for uni...

but like wad mr koh say... i gotta prepare safety nets... n ya... guess i m also thinkin bout this uni in the us... called purdue... well.. i dunno if its God plans for me to leave the country... but i don wanna think bout it... i juz wanna leave everything to God to decide... juz do my best... ya... well guess thats it for now... gotta go do my last min checks for stuff... ya... n hopefully i can pass my test... damn scared bout it lah... haiz... chiong lah..

2008-03-15T01:21:00.002+08:00

sometimes i juz wonder.... in life... how often do we get to choose n how often do we get chosen.... seems pretty complicated to me.... do i find myself drowning at times wen it des happen?
between wad i want n givin up wad i want the most... do i hav the power to act? in times of crisis... r u the person that u think u truly are?? if i were to b in danger.... do u save yourself or the one closest to u... in the end its all juz a qn of wad to do isnt it? turning to God??? turning to self? how does 1 truly determine if it is one that wil b regrettable or fruitful? m i truly growing? m i truly changing? or m i overwhelmed by it that i find myself lost in the turmoils of a lifetime..

haiz... sry... i juz needed to get those thoughts out of my head.... now bak to business... hmmm for e.g. i finally decided on a course... which is sociology... haha... yup its more of a social sci sub... many say its better to go overwseas for it... but truly i m not sure of wad kinda choice wil i make... guess still lookin about... sis wanping once asked me... do i think god wants me to go overseas... n i m still pondering over it... although i feel the ans is somewhat not wad i want to hear... but on the bright side... apart from findin out i did badly for my As... i also failed my ippt again.... grr... u noe wad... i FIRMLY PROCLAIM THAT I CANNOT JUMP FOR NUTS!!!! i accept it as a reality of life... grr.... but on the brighter side... i did well for the rest... swimming... psoc... haha n i finally got a marksman for my shootin haha... kena pressured by marvin n nic... grrr...

welll finally i bookin out on fridays haha so thats somethin to b glad bout haha.... welll thats it for now... tume to turn in haha... well nitez n cya ppl....

2008-03-09T00:40:00.002+08:00

i didnt wanna believe it... neither did i hope that it would turn out like tis... but i guess that it had to happen eventually.... well... i screwed up my A lvls... which pretty much means uni is sorta like closed to me.... i kept askin God to giv me the strength to move on.... to understand y tis had to happen... was it a test or pure assurance that my decision 2 yrs back was a really bad one... wadever it is... gotta treat it as a lesson... well... today talked to lots of ppl bout wad can b my exit pt frm here.... but guess still haven decided yet.,... it feels like all is in a mess... like i m in this hase n movin forward... not havin the simplest idea of where is my life headed... i guess i m also too tired to think.... nw juz takin things 1 step at a time.... 1 thing i hold on to is this statement...
y do we fall??? so that we can pick ourself up again.... even though i m nt sure how to do it... i sure m goona try... i juz pray i wil hav the strength to stand n not run away..... these thots echoing in my head.... wen r they gonna stop?? i got no idea... guess till i finally fu=ind a solution...i guess tis sayin is thru den... i gotta change... its not who i m underneath... but wad i do that defines me... how true tis is.... n i guess tis is where my life will b headed.............outcome=unknown............................................

2008-03-02T12:06:00.002+08:00

haiz... life is becomin so routine and boring lately... i cant begin to explain it... well...ytd at church i learnt wwsd... known as what would satan do haha.... so its like cool... n i felt i learnt a little somethin.... n once again goin into camp again.... aft all these times i guess i m juz becomin to lazy to blog sinc like i got no creative juices haha... so yup... forget it.... later my blog bedcome like evan haha.... who noes... finally gone thru bout 1/2 of my bmt... so ya that is somethin to b happy about....
welll huess that is all i wanna share bout tis time haha.. got some matters really gotta think bout now... juz hope i will make the right ones haha... anyway... nick is finally at shanghai haha so all e best dude... well cya ppl...

2008-02-17T10:31:00.002+08:00

well finally another week has passed... n another week closer to the big day... the A lvl results haha... once again tis week i m 18cm away from passing my ippt... grrr... after passin pull ups... now i m stuck at tis point for the 2nd week,.... i really dunno how to pass my sbj lah... cant jump for nuts!!! haiz...

anyway... enough of tis complainin... so i shall move on to valentines day haha... well.... tis is my 1st vdae that i spend in camp wif a whole bunch of guys... so everyone keep saboing each other lah like asking around if anyone got say happy valentines to a gal... haha... den sabo by snatching away the hp... grrr... chan jing actually snatched my hp lah.... n did somethin wif it haha... on sat at church... i was seriously tryin to stay awake durin sermon... thanks to rt in the morning... but i m glad i did... cos i learnt so much abt prayer lolz... yup... in the end... its yr intentions that matters haha.... in the nite... i had to leave earlier cos got guests in my hse haha... so i became the water boy... serving ppl drinks... cleanin up the mess haha... well the things the host will do for his beloved guests lolz... either way... i m really glad that i managed to b a good host n meet my relatives haha... tonite goin back in for another whole week... i really pray that i can finally pass my ippt so i can go home on FRI!!!!!! haiz... but i guess its up to his will... yup.... as my fren jerome always says... its all in God's plan... haha

well thats all for today... to all e ppl havin exams... all e best n strive hard ya!!!! haha... n all a lvl results ppl... God bless lol... cya!!

2008-02-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

hmmm happy chinese new yr ppl... well today went for church hse visiting... but b4 that for service... we watched a movie called a freewheel or somethin... basically bout a old car salesman who was lost but found his way back wif God... the ppl in the movie were e same ppl frm the movie facing e giants... like e main character... i gotta tell u... tis movie really touched me and i guess it was a prayer answered by God bcos well as mich bay say today... i was well facin a crisis bout church....

mic bay cleared my doubts wen she said e whole church was under an attack where ppl were tired of comin 2 church... that was y we had the 12 midnite prayer thingy... she said our cell alone had 3-4 ppl... i knew iwas 1 of them... but i cant figure out who r the rest... juz gotta pray hard... the movie i guess showed a reflection of me... n i thing i came away frm it was that doin things my way got my kinda results... but God's way were better... n that our choices in life etermine the state i m now... whether full or empty... but wad really hit home was the statement that sometimes its not that we cant hear the word of God... but rather that we choose not to accept it as it contradicts wif our way of life... haiz... i decided to make the change... now i onli hope i can really hold on to that thought...

well enough of that... aft that we went to nick n shi feng hse... it was there that we really had a lot of fun... oli n yun mei n yanni were super afraid of nick dog lah... while mic bay was playin wif the dogs like they belongd to her haha... all i can say is that she was a true blue pro at it haha.... n i could see they had a lot of fun... like how gladys n lora juz kept eating n eating n eating haha...

aft that at shi feng hse... we had another round of food haha... by den we were pretty full lol...the best part was that the parents didnt allow us to leave unless we finished e food lolz... den they llocked us in e hse!!! to go for dinner haha... but well ya.... shi feng did hav the key... we watched the movie notebook for a while b4 we left haha... without finishing the food lolz...

aft that me n nick went to hav dinner at cafe cartel at bpp.... haiz the lagsagne there was terribel... but well at least we got free flow of bread haha... on e way home... i witnessed a scene... got policemen n an ambulance... all i saw was a man halfnaked on the floor though... n bloodied... wonder wad happened to him... cant wait to experience this life myself once i graduate..hehe...

well that was all today... this chinese new yr passed really fast... n that marks almost the end of my longest hol... next up is good fri... that is i will onli enjoy if i do well for my a lvl result... my future deoends on it... i juz pray really hard for a miracle... well... thats all today... take care ppl n for the poly ppl... jia you!!! n nick... juz in case... a good farewell n soar high in china!!! u will nt b forgotten haha... byeee!!!

2008-02-03T16:33:00.000+08:00

this comin week is the week i have been waitin for...not cos its chinese new yr... but cos its 3 days in camp onli... haha.... yup... well ytd went for cell... to tell u the truth i didnt really wana go at 1st... cos i gotta go out wif my dad in the nite... so like go also no point... but in the end mic bay told me to juz go for cell at least... so last min decided to go... yup... ytd i went to jp wif marv 1st becos i had to buy present for my sis bdae haha.... cant believe i actually spent so much on it... but guess being once in a yr... so ya wadever... btw marv if u r readin tis... i told her the pacifier was from u haha....

if u noticed... i put on a new song... its actually all or nothing... reason y?? erm actually cos i was listening to it during camp...so ya... suddenly liking it once again... haiz.... but somehow... aft ytd cell grp filled wif games n laughter... i suddenly felt somethin strange... it was felt the most during pnw... n it wasnt a good kinda feelin... it felt...well... hmmm mayb i shldnt hink bout it.. i shall see how tis week goes by b4 findin out if that is really somethin to worry bout... ya... goin camp again.... so ya to all u ppl not in ns... all e best... n God bless... even though we always face a fridAy.... always believe for a sunday yup/.... byeeee

2008-01-27T17:51:00.000+08:00

haha these 2 were a few of wad i had... complimentary for evan haha
haha this is duck meat..... lolz... dunno y i take also
haha these 2 pics r my nephews lolz... can u guess wad r their names?? they r all called jonathan!!!!

haha ytd went to church den got the steamboat... in sermon it was bout lovin the unlovables haha.... i knew tis was a sermon for me cos it was in conjunction wif a guy in my squad who everyone dislikes.... well... i will b diff wen i see him tonite.... cos i noe tis is wad GOd wans...

haha at the steamboat.. i was the onli wan who did not eat... so i was like juz sian haha... but i guess i became the grp soup restorer.... the grp rice taker n food restorer haha... n drinks man haha but well i did grab some food hehe frm some of them haa.... little by little... hehe.... so i benefit in a way haha

anyway aft that i went to bedok... the cab fee was 20 plus lah... super ex.... but i really loved the food haha... compared to the food in the week... esp the choc cake haha n of course the many many little nephews n nieces.. brought back memories of me wen i was younger haha... n i really liked my 3 nephews all called jonathan... haha..i had a hard time chasing aft them cos i had to look aft them for their parents haha... anyway goin back i tonite... till next weel again haha.... grr... on the way to finally paSSIN ippt haha... well cya ppl!!! take care all!!

2008-01-20T11:23:00.000+08:00

well... ytd i went for the ignite conference... n ya... it was a trip that was worth it... somehow i guess it was in line wif a book i was reading the day b4... bout the secret to true faith... n yup.. i guess i can say i really learnt a lot from it... at ignite conference we had to go super early lah... i also dunno y also... but well i definitely agree there was a lot of ppl... like 1000 plus i think haha... unfortunately my fren alvin was working so he sis not come.. but haha... i actually met a few ppl i never met in a long time.... 1 of them was my junior... hehe.... now he was finally wearing long pants.... guessing he is in sec 4 now haha... n i also met wif a few frenz from pj wan... i didnt noe they were alr christians but its good to noe lah haha...

in the nite... we were supposed to like write in a membership form for new generation haha... there was a section on the sch i was attending haha... so i was like erm how to write??? so i juz put down 2 sch... pj n home team academy lolz... aft a long wait we finally went down the escalator n ya everyone went their separate ways.. den a funny thing happened.. while walkin towards the mrt... there were 2 gals next to me... they were talkin very loud..so i heard their conversation... den 1 of them asked the other.. ehh... u abandoning yr brother ar?? except she pronounced abandoning as (a-bun-de-ning) den i dunno y juz out of habit i actually said aloud... its (a-ban-den-ning) not (a-bun-de-ning)...

all of a sudden i was thinkin like.. wait a min i don even noe them!!y did i juz correct them... den i looked at them awkwardly at them n they were like lookin at me wif funny looks... den i say..l erm sry... instinct.... den they both smiled at me n said... no worries its ok.. den the funny part... while saying that to me... n lookin at my direction... they walked right into the notice board rite in front of them!!! den i of them thot it was a person n said sorry to the notice board lolz... den they both super paiseh.. juz looked at each other.. giggled n juz ran all the way haha... i was like laughin to myself at wad had happened... wad a funny thing to end the day.... ltr on... the guys went to jurong east to makan b4 finally goin home... at my bck gate... i saw that the gate was out of order... so i had to walk 1 round around my hse... haha... wen i finally reached home... i was so tired i juz washed my face n fell on the bed haha... mayb cos at camp i slept early haha...

haiz... tonite bookin in again... well guess its 1 more week again... so i will juz blog till here today... kk till next time... cya ppl:)

2008-01-13T10:51:00.000+08:00

well back again aft 1 slack week at camp i guess haha... well ytd.... i really gotta thank God that he really provided a way for me to get to church on time haha... i was released earlier... but somehow i juz feel that its not becos of a coincidence.... i believe He ans my prayer...

aft gettin to church...man i gotta say my police stuff was heavy haha... i went to church direct..so i had to carry everythin there to change haha.... but becos i was too lazy to carry my shoe... i wore my boots haha.... we were playin tis hide n seek game wen suddenly fiona dropped her hp accessory into the drain lolz... at 1st i juz helped to take out the drain cover... but den that evan got a corn on his foot... so he could not go in haha... so no choice i went in haha... the drain was really narrow that i could not go in fully... so i had to use my boot to slowly pull the keychain up usin the edge haha... man... wad i can say is that i really gotta spend a long time polishing my boot now liao haha... haiz... but well i guess its alrite since wad matters was that the keychain was not lost although it was really dirty lol...so it doesnt matter i got dirty lah... but i learnt my lesson nt to wear boots to church again haha...become dirty n kena stepped on by everyone haha...

lookin at it another way... perhaps i gotta b ready for this kinda things in my boots next time my trainin is over n gotta get down n dirty to help ppl lolz... so cant complain... well ytd i had tis talk wif mic bay n ya she told me some things bout my walk wif God lah.... n ya... i could really feel her passion... which i really hope i can grow wif my faith to such a level... haha... anyway... in the nite the guys went to hoagies to eat haha... den suddenly we were joined by gladys n mavis haha... they saw wad we were eatin den call us pigs lah lolz... well... its once in a lifetime good food mah... n i treated the guys to dessert lolz...

the funny one was evan... while he n mavis went to the toilet... marvin added salt to his drink n i told him to add pepper to the straw haha... wen he came back i told evan to propose a toast since i got my pay haha... he somemore so happy lah lol... den wen he drank it..his face changed n he spat the whole thing out haha... we were all like laughing at him lah... so ya... it was a fun thing haha... sorry ar evan.... we could not resist haha...

well guess thats all for now... next sat is ignite conference.. so really lookin forward to it... hopefully can see my frenz frm heart of God church as well haha.... well take care ppl... esp poly ppl havin exams haha... i juz pray i will b able to make it on sat on time wif God help lolz.... goin in tonite again..wif ippt again... haiz..aiya forget it haha..... byeee!!!!!

2008-01-10T21:30:00.000+08:00

haha i m back again... if u r wonderin how the heck m i able to blog on a week day... well... its not cos i got a com in camp... but actually.... its cos I M SICK!!!!! well that is if u count sore eye as being sick that is haha.... let me see... i went into camp on last sun.... den on mon... hehe my whole company kena punished writing somethin... as to wad i cannot say lah haha... but well.. we were supposed to hav lessons in the afternoon... but we practically didnt do anything all e way to dinner haha... cool... talk bout slack haha... n it was round there i got the sore eye... although it wasnt so serious...

on tues morn wen i woke up... i rmb andy askin me... ehh how is yr eye... i got up take a look n realised i could barely open it... wen i did... i wshed i didnt haha... it was red... n really red man... i felt like i was lookin at a monster eye haha... i was totally shocked... so i went to do ld n went to see mo haha... he gave me 2 day mc... n i was like yippee... haha wen i went back on wed... my squad mates were like quite happy to see me back to suffer wif them... but today i went to see mo for my review... haha he gave me 2 days again!!! tgt wif my fren who i infected haha... i think... wen i told my squad mates they went totally ballistic haha... like wad the heck!! we spent 6 days here n u onli spend 1 day haha... it was a good laugh...

well that was practically wad happened in the week... n i m really hopin my eye heals or else ltr any mc den at the end they say i gotta re course i will die lah lolz.... well... goin back into camp tmr nite till sat haha.... haiz... now hopin i can get to church for service... but guess i gotta go str... lets juz hope i m released on time... or else i can onli go for cell haha.... well i wil leave it to GOd ba haha....

okok.... thats all for nw... till sat or sun again i guess haha... all e best ppl!! cya!!

a new beginning

2008-01-06T11:29:00.000+08:00

back to blog... but i guess tis will b more of a reflection blog.... ytd... pastor shared bout a new beginning in 2008.... but more importantly a new beginning in oneself... more often than not... i often find myself pondering bout this qn... but i guess i never did noe wen to start....

in 2007... i guess it was a yr i was really thinkin bout many things that were happenein around me... it was a yr that i took to really find out juz wad was i doin wif my life... where i wanted to go on from there... to find myself basically... to tell u the truth while i may hav a little idea of that now... i still cant b sure of my future... which is y i guess i shld juz leave that to God to decide for me... ytd... mic bay talked bout father lord the father... basically bout some ppl who may not believe in God as a caring father due to their own experiences... although i never thought bout it b4... but i guess i may hav been influenced by this thinkin all those yrs back.... mayb even the reason i decided to renounce my faith all those yrs back... thankfully i m a christian again... n now i can say i dont regret tis choice...

1 thing i realised before goin for a fresh start was that my old self really showed me the extremes of human nature.... not many ppl noe tis but in fact i really did not like the old me... i guess after the incident all those yrs back i really lost my trust for the ppl around me... i felt i was wearing a facade... n to tell u the truth... i wore it till even i forgot who i really was deep inside..i always felt tis sense of condemnation for myself... but like the story i heard ytd.... if no one is there to condemn me.... then who m i to condemn myself??. becoming a christian again taught me to love again... to trust... n again believing wif faith beyond wad i can see.. in 2007... it was a yr i really felt i grew.... growing in many ways i didnt expect... experiencing things i experienced before... but dealing it in a way never b4... n i have onli God to thank for that...

which is the main reason i believe i m now moving to a new goal.... i do not want to go back to my old self again... always lookin back at mistakes i made...regrets i may have but not bein able to do anything about it... right now i juz wanna live for the present... not being a man of regret but something more... i guess being more for the ppl i care about... haha mayb thats y God put me in the 'mata' force rather than the army... perhaps to teach me along the way of moving beyond juz taking care of myself but the ppl beyond me.... away from the selfish character that i so often am... tis i feel is wad i hope to achieve in 2008... moving beyond the pain...the heartaches of 2007 n b4... n forging a new path that i can b used by God to accomplish wad i myself was never able to... i don noe how far i will go or how badly i will fall away from my comfort zone... but i noe that He will help me thru no matter wad...

so i guess this was the reflection.... guess juz wanted to let it go for the new yr ahead rather than keep it inside,... well back to camp tonite... n new challenges ahead.. i noe this may not sound like me to many of u.... but if u hav read tis far i juz thank you for yr patience n don wry.... i will post a lighter post next time i book out on sat..if i m not too tired to. haha.... well...to all...cya..n to the poly ppl.... all e best n God bless for yr projects or tests! n other ppl.... erm... to a new sch term???!

2008-01-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

aft a long absence i m finally back... well 1st of i m glad to say i failed my ippt again haiz... but thank God.. they did not confine me haha... for my 2.4km run.... i was very very very very pissed wen i got my timing... aparently i had failed by 2 sec.. clockin 12.22mins... i could not believe it!!!! argh!!! haiz.... its the kind of feelin u get where so near yet so far u no wad i mean??

well its been a mth since i entered ns... n man can i say i hav eperienced... accomplished n felt pains i nvr endured b4...n i hav experienced both the up sides n down sides... haha wow i sound like i m writing a reflection... but i got 3 more months to go haha... the reason y?? cos today ended my prep course... aka the toughest part of my trainin haha.... wooohooo.... well tis week... i can tell u i experienced somethin so funny i cannot stop laughin haha... as to wad... hehe i wont say... except that its a classic hahaha... well.... i didnt say happy new yr to u guys... so here is a very belated one muahahaha..... HAPPY NEW YR....hmmm.... every week i go in i always feel so dejected frm the outside world.... my frenz.... family.... the tv.... n yes... church haha... well hopefully despite confinement.... i can still make it... think i m released in the aft... so if i got the strength den i will chiong haha...no strength den i wil try my best to go n stay awake haha...

o ya b4 i forget... mus giv a section on my new yr resolutions haha...
1) lose weight
2)get silver for ippt(gotta pass 1st haha)
3)become more matured in thinkin n spiritualy\ly
4) get good grades for a lvl( to get promoted n get to a local uni i hope)
5)good health n good posting aft pop
6) closer relationships wif frenz n reachin out to them
7) a lot more which i cant think of yet... but i will try to fulfil haha.. but of course good health for everyone

haha guess these r for now... hopefully i can reach these goals n indeed embrace the leap yr haha.... well take care ppl n all best to all!!! cya!

2007-12-25T12:00:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
these 2 were among some of the photos i took on christmas bash haha...
the 2 pics below were taken wen celebratin my bdae haha yup.. i like the cool background haha

haha tis was kev sleepin haha... hope u dont mind kev...

haha MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone... ya... i got released ytd aft... but goin in tonite again haha... well i heard my ipptis tmr so we shall see how it goes... last nite i went all the way to yishun haha cos biwei hse over there n the class party was at her house

but i gotta say tis.. her house is seriously huge haha n i took around 1 hr plus to get there haha.... i wanted to take 852 from my hse but den i rmb fiona last time say it will take very long so i didnt haha..LUCKILY I DIDNT HEHE.... the moment i arrived... everyone had mixed faces lolz but i realised a lot of them said i look good botak haha.... which is diff from church ppl n my sis haha... all cant stop laughin haha.... germaine still say i shld hav gone botak long time ago haha.... well i dunno... wad do u guys think haha??? oh n of course i wont forget the gals punchin my stomache to see hard anot haha... ltr i vomit all the food how?? lolz...anyway i managed to flag a cab at 12 haha.... miracle

but in the cab... mt heart was like beatin damn fast cos the meter was like goin the same speed as my heart lolz... so i prayed... thank GOd i had enough to pay haha... well that was wad happened ytd lolz.... n ya... i woke up today wif my sore throat haha.... do hopefully i will b well by tonite haha.... pray hard.... thats all today.... n till next time enjoy the last week of hols ppl... haha... all e best!!! cya!! n once again merry christmas to all my frenz haha

2007-12-23T17:41:00.000+08:00

finally back from my long long camp haha.... well nt exactly lah... but cos i had no time over the week so here i m now lah... the 1st thing i got was wad happened to my hair haha... esp frm the church ppl... many of them didnt think that i went ns haha... they thot i shaved for fun haha.... but well gotten used to the touching as well haha.... tell u guys the truth... i hav totally lost my voice today...yup...n to think that i m goin in tonite...sure will kena from the FI one... haha... well it doesnt matter since its juz 1 day n tmr i will b out again... hehe tmr goin to biwei hse for class christmas outing haha.... cant wait to see my classmates again haha....problem is whether i got the voice to talk to them haha... believe it or not... i think i got a spiritual attack on fri... ya.... cos i suddenly came down wif sore throat.... fever n headache lah... luckily the guys were there to look out for me haha.... but i noe that i became lost n a little disorientated haha...cannot find the toilet lah... walk past it also dunno haha....

well i gotta thank God though... cos thru christmas bash he taught me a lot of things... things i didnt expect haha... n he really helped me as in i was actually well for the concert haha.... unfortunately i was sick again today haha... but i m nt complaining... i really wish to share wad i went thru in camp haha but i m binded nt to haha... cos i may b charged if say too much haha.... so for the guys... too bad... u wil find out wen u go in... haha...

ya... juz wanna take tis time to thank the ppl who gave me presents ytd haha... really like it n the ppl who took the time to write notes as well haha.... really appreciate it haha.... n o... last but not least... to the ppl who showed concern n support for me while i was in camp durin confinement.... it really helped me alot yup... so thanks!!!!

haha nw i juz pray i can pass my ippt haha... so i can return to church haha... or else i will miss out a lot cos i will onli b released on sat evening... so i will keep trainin up n prayin hard haha.... ya.... so cya ppl... n take care... enjoy yr hols ya!!!!

final post haha

2007-12-09T15:07:00.000+08:00

these r pics frm my prom n class chalet

everyone takin a s11 pic tgt

haha gettin ready for cyclin trip at chalet n the guys wif a pic below

on top r the guys n below the gals respectively haha
haha a grp of retrenched ppl sittin on the street
smile... u r at the foot steps of court haha
haha the guys strikin a post lolz

well... back for what i can call my officially last post in a long time... the reason y?? well cos nxt tues is the day i report in haha... well at least its now den ltr haha.... hopefully i can go for christmas bash haha... but well gotta see the theme 1st lolz... ltr i no shirt den forget it le haha... wonder if on sat i will even hav the strength to jump haha... hopefully my fren can go... i ask atang ytd... he say that shld b able to go haha.... so i hope he will come haha... n hope for all the best...

last tues was my prom haha... n man was it fun lolz... the food was not bad... but i guess the fun part was takin pics wif frenz...which i unfortunately haven gotten hold of a lot of them lolz... so gotta wait for my frenz to upload hehe... the mc was the dj daniel ong haha... some of u may noe him frm 98.7fm haha... he was comedic so it was cool... the worst part was the prom king n queen haha... i didnt like the ones who got chosen... they looked so dao lah.. but wadever lah.. haha.. aft that we went to post prom... which was at the Arena haha... ya... it was a pub... i guess... but i dunno somehow i didnt think it was fun haha... i felt pretty bored also...mayb clubbin isnt my thing ba... but well... i juz went to see it for the 1st time n experience it haha... saw many interestin stuff haha.... so cant say it was a fruitless trip...but i doubt i will go again hehe.... not my style haha...

the next few days... hehe... my mom n sis went to hong kong hehe... which meant i had freedom to do lots of stuff lolz... the reason i didnt go was due to my ns hehe... well anyway... i had alot of fun... had frenz comin over n blah blah blah haha... den on sat... i went to church lah... the last time b4 goin botak hehe.... of course church ppl make fun lah..haha but the combined service haha... haiz... my ass was killin me for sittin so long haha.. but either way... haiz i sure m gonna miss my hair... it wont b the same thats for sure... mayb look very funny haha... well... guess gonna find out on tues haha... hopefully my NS mates r good ppl to b around wif...so that i wont kena influenced or somethin... but 1 thing i m sure is that i will probably b asleep for future snl haha..so gotta stock up on sweets haha... n hope the church ppl will understand haha.....

well... guess thats it... its pretty long but hope u guys will enjoy the following 2 weeks wen i m away frm my life haha.... for all the poly ppl... i noe these few weeks r yr exams...so work hard ya!!! don giv up no matter wad... but don let stress overtake... believe that God will help u guys pull thru... haha... so all e best... for my ex pj frenz haha... rock on ya!!! tc ppl... n all the best!!! bye!!!! GOd bless!!!

2007-12-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

well back again... today church was diff as we had a combined service... guess was prety good bondin with the smaller cell ppl... but it was aft everyone left that i suddenly felt very emo... i didnt noe y... but now i do... but as to wad... i cant say it here... cos well... some things i feel r better left unsaid haha... cos its like personal.... but haiz... i really feel kinda pissed over it... i mean u wanna talk den talk lah... dont say wanna talk den ltr keep complainin but don wanna say anything... haiz... forget it... sry for hearin me bitch today... mayb nick is right... that i m juz tired... well thats all today... cya ppl...

2007-11-29T22:18:00.000+08:00

well.... back from the chalet lolz.... it was a 3 day thing... but in the end i onli went for 2 days lolz... n the funny thing? i didnt slp in the 2 days lolz... y nt??? well.... cos we did too many things lolz....

well lets start wif tues morn haha... i went to the airport... den i met wif yun mei... peiqi n yuting at je mrt b4 goin lolz... cos the rest all got somethin on so didnt come lolz...aft seein shi feng n pamela... well we passed them the tidbits that we bought den aft that bcos the gals took so long to decide where to eat i juz left n was on the airbus wen i saw peiqi n yt again haha... yup... cos they left 1st... n i took the train all the way back to je lolz... aft that we finally went to the chalet at downtown east haha..... we squeezed like 16 ppl in a room meant for 4 lolz.... ca u believe it... haha... but the gals were lucky... they got the bed...while the guys onli had the floor haha.. well we had a bbq... n we actually got 4kg worth of stingray lah.... so it was like totally cool haha....hha den we like juz cahtted n ate.... n i caught up wif karen on old times again haha... so long nvr see her haha..somemore my buddy in sch lolz... so we like juz chatted.... includin other ppl like jae... alv... jm... andre.. haha... basically most of the class haha..

well we rented some bikes n in the nite at 12 we went biking lolz.... believe it anot... we biked around 40km... yup... from downtown east to changhi village n then changhi airport haha... i rmb along changhi it was like so damn endles.. the road that is... juz keep goin on n on n on... btw... hw i noe it was 40km?? cos we were told by the police officers that stopped us n asked for our particulars lolz.... yup... i was stopped again... 2 times in 2 weeks lolz... we didnt hav our ic wif us... so we juz wrote down on a paper hah... den the cops crapped wif us n aft that told us to head back.. that was 3am in the morn lolz... haha... n i gotta hand it to alvin... while we cycled 40hm.. he roller bladed 40km haha... as the cop said...he is fit lolz!!

we reached back at 5 pluz... haha aft bathing... we talked talked n haha guess wad... we all fell asleep... but me oni for 1/2 an hr.... den i went out wif some of ht ppl nt asleep n we juz talked till 10am b4 returning the bikes... well all in all... the chalet was fun except for the butt cramps lolz...

ttd i reached home at 5... so i went to nap n set ny alarm at 6.30 haha... but in the end i didnt hear the alarm n slept rhru till 9 lah lolz... aft that,.. i continued sleepin till 9 tis morn... muz tav been real tired haha... today celelbrated tingwei bdae...haha had lotza fun too haha...

well... thats it for these few days... think i m pretty tired typin haha... so u noe wad... thats all today... hope u guys enjoy yr days ba... cya ppl!!!

2007-11-26T21:54:00.000+08:00

well.... aft away frm home these few days it sure feels good to b back.... well lets juz say i hav been stayin at a hotel since fri... wif my family n a few frenz.... namely nick jac n william haha... it was cos my mom had this free room for her credit card haha... over there we celebrated my bdae... haha.... n we stayed at orchard till 1 pluz b4 takin a cab back to the hotel...haha.... man orchard road sure is empty lolz..we also did spa(no massage.. juz the jacuzzi n steam/suana rooms lolz) haha... can u believe it.. i rmb they don let nick in cos he was not 18 yet lolz... but we still sneaked him in haha... well... another thing is that i had a lot of cake to eat tis week haha

gotta thank my mom for the tiramisu cake hehe... loved it... n of course church for the cake...think if i rmb correctly its called a oreo cookie cake haha.... of course that was in conjunction wif nick n elene bda that was very close to mine haha..
hmmm.... although this was my bdae that i actually didnt eat my fav cake haha.... actually its the cheapest of all... pandan kaya cake hehe... mayb i wait next yr for it hehe... heard frm my mom the reason tis yr so good treat me eat is cos its like a sendin off for me to ns lolz.... yup... definitely haven forgotten bout that hahaha... well... if anything... i gotta b ready for it... thats y startin to train really soon haha....

haha tmr i will b goin to the airport to send the mission trippers n get my pencil case back i hope hahaha.... bought them some goodies...so hope they will like it... another thing is that the next few days i will also b in the chalet... so woohooo.... its like a class outing.,..hope it will b fun haha... but that means tmr i gotta go changhi in the aft n rush back to je by 3 to meet my frenz... den head back to pasir ris again haha.... dunno y i do such funny things lolz... o ya... nearly forgot... ytd i actually did a personality test... n guess wad... i m a INFP.... otherwise known as the dreamer haha.... its pretty spot on haha... if u guys wan u can try it yourself at mypersonality.com haha

well... guess that is enough crappin for today.... nw i gotta start packin for tmr haha.... gonna b tirin.... but well... gotta find out juz how isit..... thanks for bein so patent n readin till nw lolz... so thank you!!! ya i noe i sound strange today... mayb juz over tied haha...... well juz wanna say thanks to all my frenz who made my bdae such a meaningful one haha.so... THANKS!! n juz in case i cant come blog anytime soon... happy bdae tingwei! n xin yi... a belated bdae as well haha.. well... back to packin... cya ppl n all the poly ppl... all e best for the comin projects lol... n jc/sec ppl... enjoy the hols lolz

2007-11-21T22:57:00.000+08:00

after like a long time...finally back... well wad can i say... the As r finally over!!!! actually ytd lah... but well... another reason i cannot blog was cos i didnt hav my laptop n my mom took away the keyboard for the desktop!! i couldnt believe it... the reason y as some of u noe it is a long story....which i will not elaborate haha....

actually today wanna blog bout somethin interestin.... decided nt to blog bout my near arrest but guess most of u noe it so i shall nt talk bout it lolz... well.... these few days hav been the slackest days of my lives... today i finally took out my ps2 to play haha... its like super old alr but thank GOd its still workin... haiz..countin down my days of freedom alr lolz... wadever the case... juz gota start workin out alr haha...... tmr got prayer mtg n the guys say muz bring 2 sets haha...wonder wad they up to hehe... cos marc always has the crasy n funny ideas lolz... haha... well... today went out wif my dad..... n he bought me a new pair of jeans n shoes haha.... guess that made my day lolz.... phew... kk think i shall stop here today.... cya ppl

almost there

2007-11-11T11:04:00.000+08:00

finally found the time to blog bout somethin...well nw in the midst of my a lvl...nxt week can say is the last week...phew....cant wait 4 that... but sadly next week also the most stressful... 4 papers... haiz... i shudder at the thought haha.... guess these few weeks a lot of stuff has happened.... i hav also been thinkin alot bout many part of my life... but well at least i m occupied wen i m nt studyin...

alot of funny things happened also like last night.... i told nic that i wont b runnin wif him in the nite... but in the end i ended up runnin also... although not in the way u would expect... actually last nite i went to wm wif jac... we were studyin... n we wnded up goin to mac at wm in the nite haha.... we had a late night supper n of course we ate mac... at around 11.30 we left haha... while walkin to the bus interchange to catch 173... i saw 173 the bus lights on... so we ran all the way to the end of the interchange where 173 was... but i cant believe it...wen i reached... it left!!!! argh.... so i had a crazy idea... den the both of us sprinted frm the end of the interchange all the way to the bus stop outside...man it was tiring...somemore i wearin slippers n it kept feelin like it was gonna drop off!!!

but thank GOd we made it n we got on the bus...on the bus... i felt like my food was in my throat n i really felt like puking haha... i m sure jac was also like that.... man talk bout a late night sprint... anyway i got home without puking n thank GOd i made it haha.... well... think thats all for today.... all the best to the ppl havin as... its almost over... n the poly ppl all the best for the many many projects haha... cya ppl!!!

2007-10-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

well back again... haven blog 4 a week alr... nt that nothing to write haha juz that too busy... ya... i hate the fact that the A lvl is next week ya.... prayin reeeeel hard but very afraid bout physics... still really afraid... but heck it... juz dunno wad to do... so juz pray n pray n pray..... well today i mugged n slept the whole day... no seriously... think i slept more also haha.... probably y i hav so much energy nw... well tis week hav been training wif jac n marv.... all to prepare for ns which is not too far away haha... while i nvr tell jac... but my muscles is seriously aching right now... yup.... n its been 2 days haha.. tmr another session...wonder how i will hold up though haha...hope i dont die b4 my A lvl haha... mayb it is a blessing in disguise..haha jkjk

either way... i hav been thinkin bout somethin... hehe guess i felt like i nvr really kept a promisee to someone haha.... its my old old fren haha... i actually promised to treat her to a meal n take her out during the chinese new yr week tis yr... yup... a long time ago... but i kinda forgot bout it bcos of the ang pows!!!! well aft forgettin bout my deal wif her.. which she rightfully deservd for doin so damn well i juz feel like suddenly i m remembering all the debts i owe ppl that i juz remember all of a sudden haha... wonder y i rmb them now of all times... mayb the stress... well for the ppl i rmb owing i will repay them haha... but aft the A lvl... or i feel this tugging feeling wont go away haha.... wonder if its my conscience call haha... wadever i owe tis yr muz repay haha... guess thats the chinese belief... well.... today i will b crapping till here onli... n waiting to find my blogskin that i like haha... then all will b hanged...here is good luck to all the a lvl n o lvl ppl ya... God bless n strive on!!!!

this new skin is temp cos old one got prob

2007-10-18T17:00:00.000+08:00

these r the guys acting nerdy pom pom n super happy haha..

tis is aisyah me n christabel hehe..aisyah say i should write i m the luckiest guy alive wif them... haha ya rite!!! who noes.. wif my luck lol

prayin mantis wen jie... n me and my pal alvin lol

us acting beng n the pic below show me.. mother hen n frenz lol

finally no more pj!!! bye bye haha

hey ppl... i noe my blog is funny... tis is temp cos ytd help my fren wif his blog that mine dunno y mess up today haha... so for nw juz enjoy some pics ya haha..these were taken on the last days of sch so ya... haha... nw guess i m busy busy busy.... 1 more week to the As... can say very scared...haha.... well last nite i went foe a run wif my fren... we went past nick house but decided nt to shout haha... den it was in the nite n we felt this mist following us... pretty scary hah... nick... yr place is haunted!!!! juz kiddin... ya... anyway these photos were fun pics haha... anyway enjoy them ya... lol... till next time!!

2007-10-07T21:38:00.001+08:00

let me juz blog bout ytd 1st... ytd was a pretty new experience since marvin came back... hopefully ks will come as well.... hmm that hopefully the guys in our cell will continue to grow..cos rite nw we r still pretty outnumbered.... haha... hmm ytd did a lot of praise n worship also....but it was somehow not the same as b4 cos can really feel everyone pouring out in prayer as well.... can really feel the atmosphere... n guess that is great...the next step is gettin our cell to become more bonded as well... although i feel the time for that to happen may b yi camp.. but haiz wont b there to c it cos i will b in camp alr... haha... but nissi light will definitely b in my prayers always as well as the ppl in it haha... well last nite the guys all went to buddy hoagies for dinner..... yup... we went there at 7 but waited till 8 for our food to b served... guess in the meantime we did wad guys did best...... talkin..talkin n more talkin.... as for the details its basically guys talk haha... the guys will get it... well aft finally eatin we finish at 9 plus at the bus stop.... we met sherie oli suyin pamela n yun mei haha... oli the bdae gal kept hidin frm suyin behind me n evan cos of suyin with the flour haha... n i met this new gal called err i forgot... onli rmb its somethin like col way haha... said she saw me at the market b4 but i didnt recognise her haha

well that was almost all for sat... on sun i juz mugged n mugged haha.... super sian... o n i guess i talked to ppl bout ns haha... cos my mom ket sayin haha.. well if some of u didnt noe... i got into the police force...hehe but no hol... apparently gotta go in at 11 dec... n haiz... while most ppl have 2 yrs break... i gotta study!!!! argh... less trainin lah... but alot of lecture..not to mention exams... haiz seems the more i want to escape studyin the more God wants me to study haha.... wonder if that is a sign lol... well that means no break or hols for the rest of my life.....argh!!!! unless i m unemployed aft graduation lah lolz.... well enough of complaining... juz gotta do my best...esp in my phy... muz overcome... well too tired to write anymore... so thats it fo now... cya ppl!!

2007-10-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

well back again... this week has been really tiring... guess mayb its cos i hav really started studyin....hmmm.... last week of sch nxt week den i m on my own... well talkin bout the A lvl... i guess i can onli think of 2 situations arising on the day i get my results... right nw i did badly 4 my prelims... really bad... well 1st senario wen i get my results... i realise i do well 4 my A lvl n can get to the course i want.... that is wad all who do a lvl hope... a miracle... den there is the worst case senario... i do equally bad or a little better than prelim n end up juz passin... which in this case means i will hav no where to go... the qn i m thinkin is den wad?? haha... guess thats a penny 4 thot... guess we gotta b real at some times n think thru wad to do wen things dont turn out our way rite?? lol.. well 1 thing i m sure is that A lvl is nt a full stop 4 me... some of u who dun noe tis... well bcos of the new cirriculum 4 jc... we cannot re-take our A lvl again even i we wanted to... so A lvl is a 1 shot thing... do or die... well alot of ppl choose to think that the end is if we fail the a lvl... but i always hav a philosophy... the one shot at the A lvl does nt mean one shot in life... tmr will hav some seniors comin back to prove that pt... hope it will b helpful to me haha...well enough of that a lvl crap... life is more than that... n God will show me the path haha... well lets juz say tis week has been pretty blurry... i had fun tryin to distract my thots n talkin to frenz n hangin out.. somethin i did pretty little in the past.. n i managed to dig into my studies hard.... well guess this is also helpful in a way as it helps in my studies... but ya... gettin along fine n copin a little better each day tis week wif the issues in my life..so many things happened in the past few weeks so i m glad i m finally slowing down n gettin control over my life again... at least this time i m not alone... ya... n i guess i m finally dealin wif the probs n takin it step by step with His help... haha... on a lighter note... i really like the song on my blog... thats y i put it up haha.... well hope u ppl like it too!! its your guardian angel by the red jumpsuit apparatus haha... well thats all 4 today... cya ppl!!! take care!!!

ps. anyone got the song pure glory(u can watch it at the bottom of my blog) by watermark or christy nockels?? haha if u do... send it to me!!!! really wan it badly haha....

monday bloopers

2007-10-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

well... today i started the day by sayin somethin stupid... durin the 1st lec.... the teacher suddenly say on wed got econ enrichment lesson 4 those that got D n above..the 1st thing that came to my mind was that i didnt hav to stay back!! wad did nt occur to me was that i shouted out loud: Woohooo!!!! i m so happy i failed econs!!!!!! the next thing i knew.... my frenz started laughing n scolding me... ehh jonathan... u crazy ar... rather fail than go 4 extra lesson... well that is a dumb moment 4 u guys frm yours truly....well there was another incident some time ago last yr... but dun think wanna bring it up... make me look so stupid... well wad can i say bout today... well 1 word...BORING!!!!!!!!!!! ya.... sch is so sian... luckily nxt week is the last week haha... guess the onli thing i really rmb was the gp vid we watched today in the aft... bout animal cruelty... mr koh say aft watchin we will become temp vegetarians haha... at 1st i didnt believe him... boy was i wrong... i really felt sry 4 the animals that i did not eat meat today aft that... well it was really very graphic 4 a documentary...haha... well gettin the vcd from him.. so if any of u guys ever think of goin vegetarian well let me noe... i let u watch n i m sure u will nt dare touch meat haha...well come to think of it... i guess we were really meant to b vegetarians.. not onli is it said in genisis in the bible but research has proven this as well... haha... wonder if its time to change haha... but well... guess cant really live without meat 4 long haha as my mom says...i m a MEAT EATER... well thats all 4 tis boring post lol... have a gd day ppl...cya!!

thanks 4 the memories

2007-09-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

well... the moment i came online...the 1st thing i realised was that i had many emails... but onli 1 really striked out... i read it n i guess... i was thankful to God for the strength he gave me... well guess this was the right thing to go n i want to do wads best 4 her... as to wad happens in the next few ys... i guess wad i can say is God will b done...but ya... 1 thing i do noe for my ans for whether my love stands is that i will choose to wait... waiting 4 the right timing wen He feels i m ready again..till den... i will b concentrate on doin wad i hav to do... well... i dun believe in thinkin too much abt all that has happened alr... except to move 4ward...n nw it is my exam... no more studyin for anyone else but myself... guess this is wad she n God n my frenz will want me to do rite? n becos i wanna do it myself haha... nw my qn is... wad course 4 uni??? lolz... well guess will find out eventually... being part n parcel of life... i may nt noe his plans 4 me... but i noe they r for the best... so i hope that everyone will have a gd day... n take care.... strive on ppl.... well... 4 a lvl ppl... lets chiong ok?? haha.. take care n God bless!!!!haha today short post... well nxt time got nice story will let u ppl noe again ok haha... till den... haha cya...

i m nt santa claus

2007-09-29T21:42:00.000+08:00

well back again.. today guess did nth much in the morn... except goin 4 sch in the morn... the same nxt week as well... well aft that wen nick hse n we were late 4 church...well mayb partly becos nick too 15 mins juz to decide wad wear... juz kiddin dude... its not your fault... well can say today sermon was really different.. i really felt that it was somethin i really learnt frm... i dunno if this was a coincidence.. but somehow it was in conjuncture wif my week... n wad i talked to mic bay bout last nite... or shld i say this morn.. well gotta rmb i m nt santa claus.. dun have to carry a baggage on my back... ya... can say ytd was really nt a good day...so many things happened... n sadly to say i ended up like the carrot in my previous post..

well i may not noe wad will happen but 1 thing i m sure is that i m nt gonna stop makin an effort to right the wrongs i hav inflicted on the ppl i care for... its useless to cry over things that hav happened that i regret nw... but the reason life is worth living is that we noe we hav wad it takes to turn the tide of situations around if we really want to...4 that person i have really hurt.. i juz wanna say i m SORRY 4 wad i have done in not doin anythin at that moment when it mattered... ya... well ppl the message i wanna spread is that we may fall at times... but wad matters is that we get up... n an advantage we christians hav is a lovin God to carry us thru...no matter wad.... well 4 my frenz out there who r facing 1 prob or another... let me appeal to u to keep goin n dun give up cos more often than not... we tend to giv up at the critical moment when we r 1 step away frm success... this has been drilled in my mind... n the reason i m gonna keep movin n holdin on... well haha... tis is another side of me i rarely show... but ya thats all 4 nw... gonna turn in 4 the nite... all the best ppl.. n take care...

a story 4 everyone i guess..including me...

2007-09-28T20:59:00.000+08:00

well back again.... lately someone has been sayin my post gettin emo haha.... so i decided i will nt post a emo one lolz.... well so i will juz say wad happened today.... well in sch today.... i got back all my results... well guess gotta say that i didnt really like it haha.... but its over... so left 1 month to chiong..hehe... today assembly we had a talk on how were we gonna face the upcoming exams...cos there r many different reactions to how we face probs n over time how we deal wif it... very often we find ourselves facing setbacks in life.... very often as nick said... we face failures... but as we face them we also mature.... but wad is maturing??? well frm wad i learnt... true maturity is when we are able to take responsibility for the probs in our lives n face it instead of running away or cowering in defeat...whether it is studies... or anything bout life... we r always on a par n we r always able to deal n overcome them.... the qn we gotta ask though is wad r the skills we have that enable us to counter our probs...everyone has a skill that he/she is gifted wif... the qn is whether or not we noe we have that skill....

well having a skill is not to take it 4 granted... cos skill=talent+hardwork+determination...... we may have the talent... but if we do not work on it... it will b lost.... well guess 4 many of us... whether the As or the Os... we r finally at the final leg... what we do nw will decide wad happens to us 4 the next few yrs of our lives... wif that i leave u ppl a story i heard today that i hope will help u ppl...

on a table there r 3 bowls of water.... in the water is a carrot... an egg n coffee beans in the cups respectively... they were all boiled 4 an hr... aft that... the end result of the 3 cups were observed... the carrot became soft.... the egg became hard-boiled n the coffee bean turned the water into coffee... the hot water represents the troubles we face in life... at the end of a crisis... r we like the carrot??? which goes into tough times strong but turns out weak n fragile.... or r we the egg... that go in soft n warm hearted... but come out feelin cold n angry at everything...becoming a heartless person who has becomed someone else frm our turmoil n lost who we truely were n used to b at peaceful times??? or r we like the coffee bean.... that enters hardship wif the determination to turn something bad into something good... making hot water into coffee?? the hotter the water... the better smelling is the coffee??? n maturing thru it...what happens to us wen we face hardship???.......... we shld b like the coffee bean n influence the situation instead of letting the situation influence us n our lives... so my question to u is... r u the carrot... egg or the coffee bean???

well thats it ppl hope u guys enjoy yr days n live life to the fullest.... cya n take care!!!

2007-09-25T22:39:00.000+08:00

wel back again.... haiz today last day of my hols... den back to studyin again... cos i think gettin results tmr... pretty afraid... well wad can i say... today didnt really do much... juz watch movies all the way... luckily i rent movies or else haha... dunno hw le... but well william came my hse in the aft.... to collect his avatar... wah super tiring... burn 20 eps 4 him in 2 days... the funny thing is that he later tell me cannot watch.. can onli do so on tv.... haha.... usin dvd player.... haha burn so many disc 4 frenz le dunno y his so strange... but well prob solved so cant b bothered... lol... well... prelims over.... nw the real deal begins... its time to mug alr.... this is it.... n gotta pray a lot... really alot... feel like under alot of spiritual attacks... like nowadays very easy become angry... haiz mayb the stress.... so how??? gotta destress!!!!! haha... super bored.... well thats it 4 nw... think gonna turn in early tonite... ya... 4 once in a blue moon... or wil neva get well haha.. bye ppl...

american convention

2007-09-24T22:03:00.000+08:00

well back again.... on sun was a pretty packed day... in the mornin met jac to go to tis ameica uni convention... well it was my mom's idea...since she spotted it on the papers so i went there... esp since i may actually hav to go overseas for my studies as well hah... we'll see what is God's plans 4 me... if its overseas den wel... gotta take a look 1st.... well over there at pan pacific hotel i was pretty interested in 2 particular uni... one of them called lincoln... te other wn wf a pretty long name.. wif somethin like strastsalvic or somethin like that... located at mitchiwi... dunno if its called that... but ya... kinda like it n well the environment is good too... so haha we'll see... esp the dorms... its awesome.. but the thing is that in america... its normally a 4 yr course haha... so a little longer... if i do take a double... well it could take longer.. haha... well... i guess pretty excited bout it...
well in the nite i saw someone i wishi didnt nt hav to see... i was at kinokuniya wif my family... n i saw him wif his wife there...guess was pretty afraid how my mom would react... but thank God nth happened... i went up to say hi though... but can see he wasnt really interested in talkin... mayb becos afraid of his wife seein me... if this was 1 yr ago...i wonder wad i would have done... i was very tempted to go slap her in the face esp aft seein my mom's eyes... but pretty glad i held back...so thank God 4 helpin me n this... well... wonder hw long tis will go on... but i m pretty tired of this... but well as my mom said... it has not started yet... n seriously... this is somethin i dun want to face in the future as well....... too tired to.... well... was in a pretty bad mood as a result... can see my mom was too... didnt really talk last nite wen we went home... well... its over... dun wanna think bout them... well enjoy yr week ppl... sry... but i felt i wanted to let it out... so ignore the last part if it irritates u... well thats 4 nw... byeee...

fri

2007-09-21T22:19:00.000+08:00

haha yea changed the song again... this is by chris daughtry... yup.... well today was the start of the hols so i went ot wif my gd bro alex... ya hven gone out wif my bro 4 a log long time... so really caught up on old times... n today while at orcard wif him we also watched the movie rogue assasin.... ya if u got the time... do watch it...its nt a simple movie.. it gets u thinkin also... so i really enjoy tis... ya tmr class supposed to go to this island called pulao somethin 4 some fun learning journey.... too bad my koh fell ill at the last min... guess the whole class were really lookin forward to goin... but well... i hope that the next time it won't b on a sat... or haiz gonna have to miss it again.... ya... well today was a pretty weird but i guess fun day juz hangin out n talkin bout probs we have once again....like old times.... really miss the good old days... well.. today was also talkin to someone bout christ... didnt expect i will b talkin to her bout it.... but it all started wen i wished her happy birthday ya... so well mayb i helped plant the seeds... hopefully can bring her to church 1 day n save her... ya... cos our jobs is to spread the word rite haha... so i guess no matter wad we r down wif... savin someone juz makes yr day...yup... gotta pray haha.. 4 all our frenz... well ya guess this is it 4 today... dunno wad tmr will bring...well will leave it to tmr anyway... ok ya... cya ppl...

2-5am in the morn

2007-09-20T23:04:00.001+08:00

ya.... i m back again.... well although my prelims r finally over... thought i will b super happy wif this release of stress.... guess mayb nt..... dunno is this post exam stress or juz that i thinkin bout somethin.... well cant ay i slept well last nite.... aft loggin off n talkin to some ppl.... juz started turing about in my bed.... dunny isit hat i juz couldnt sleep like that..... rmb the last time i was like that was last yr 1 day... but as to wad happened i dun wanna bring it up again.... so i did somethin i nvr thught i will do.... at 2 plus in the morn... i couldnt sleep... so i juz got up...

switch on the lights n started istening to christian songs instead of emo ones.... dunno y the change... bt i started havin the urge to read my bible.... so i took it up n suddenly juz started on the book of James... i guess as i looked thru the whole book of james(somone hinted me to read it) i juz started questioning so much of myself... so i took out a piece of paper n started jotting down wad i felt was wrong in my life n seeing wad was my attitude towards it... sadly i realised bout myself wad was wrong.... n i realisd the same words juz came up in my mind... there will b miracles if i believe... i feel pretty ps to say this but 4 the 3 hrs last nite... i nearly teared as i read.... n i actually prayed 4 so many things in my life.... but as nick says... 1 day probs is enough... i shld nt b think bout wad is tmr prbs...so ya... decided nt to think so much anymore.... nt wanting to b in control anymore... cos i believe he will guide me wif his wisdom n pick me wen i fall.... all i gotta do is believe n do my best in wadever he has given me... relationships... studies.. life... hope this testimony helps u guys in yr walk wif christ... ya... well take care ppl... n thanks to those who helped in 1 way or another... n 1 last thing i muz remember is quick to listen... slow to talk n slow to anger.. feel back in him again..ya..cya n enjoy ppl:)

strange post... cos nth better to do 4 yr info

2007-09-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

finally wed is here.... well guess i m both happy n sad that the prelims is finally comin to a close... left wif mcq tmr... bt i can't understand y they had to put it in the aft... iritatin... gosch 4 1hr onli... petty redundant... well as some of u may noe... i was sick pretty much this whole prelims... the worst exam in my entire life... but luckily nt the last.. if it was the As... den can say i m dead... ya get the pic... well actually its during this kind of stressful periods that ppl get sick or even stressed haha... lately i read on this book.... seems pretty good so i decided to read haha... n i realised sometimes ppl get sick n cant get well despite meds??? well u noe sickness is due to bad memories n eperiences as well?? its through our emotions... sometimes wen u realise u keep gettin a recurring illness?? n no matter how many times u recover... it comes back???

well... research has shown that everytime... such illness are in fact linked to a memory we once had... a prob that we kept in us n didnt resolve...u may nt noe tis... bt in fact keepin probs to ourself n suffering alone not onli affects us emotionally bt mentally n physically as well... in most cases.... such things over long term leads to cancer as well.... so we hav to resolve our issues or find ways to get rid of them....n i mean it as in really t let it stay a prob in us anymore...

well u may find it hard to believe bt nof the ways is colour therapy... we shld stayin tuned wif blue more... which refers to unconditional love... asthe sayin its easier to forgive n forget... in fact... the colous we love n hate pretty much tells us juz wad gifts we hav n wad bad habits we hav... in tis case... the colour we hate!!! THE BEST CASE IS if u r able to like all colurs haha... the colour of the rainbow... u can try it yourself.. determine yr fav n least fav colours n find out wad they represent... it will tll u more bout yr personality haha... ya.... thats it 4 today... cant wait 4 tmr to end... then freedom till wed hahaha!!!!

masked

2007-09-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

well.... back again... its sat.... hmmm guess can say today was pretty ok.... a happy day 4 me.... had a eally fun time hanging out wif someone... cant say who 4 security reasons haha..during lunch at bpp b4 goin to church today.....at church... i was told at the last min i was the icebreakerer.... n i didnt noe.. nearly had heart attack.... but thank god he provided me if the wisdom to get it over wif haha... ya well i guess today was better compared to the rest o the week since it was a prety rough week.... except fri nwards of course... i will always rmb the stomach pains i had to endure durin the exam grrrr... neva wanna feel it again... but haiz... u noe... its times like tis that it makes u realise juz how unpredictable lif can b??? u neva noe wad will happen.... but iend... hopefully its accordance to god will.... i guess no mattr wad prob u face... hether u happy...sad.... depressed or fed up bout it... i guess we shld nvr let our emotions get the better of us.... in such a case... askin 4 god wisdom is the best alternative....

wad rlly struck out 4 me today was wen ps song say we r alwalys wearing a mask... i m one to agree wif that... cos sometimes i really feel that i m wearin a facade... its onli wif the closest of frens that u r willing to let them see who u truly are.... n the reason 4 the facade is cos we r driven by fear rite?? i wonder if there will ever b a time we an all show who we really are 24/7.... guess will b workin to that day... shld it ever come.... cos in the end... well...........................

last papers of the week!!

2007-09-15T00:20:00.000+08:00

haha back ppl... well today was the last sch day of the week n man can i say i m totally fatigued haha..... esp today... did hist n econs haha a 3hr n a 2.15hr paper... frm morn to aft... let me see... tis is the 1st time i ever written 6 essays in like 1 day.. no wonder they call it a killer paper haha.... wad is most embarrassing is that tis morn only 2 ppl turned up... me n my fren shawn since we r the onli ppl takin hist hha.... grrr the others r geog ppl lolz... well anyway... i learnt that writinh 4 essays in 3 hrs is no easy feat haha.... by the 3rd essay i almost gave up haha... but luckily i pressed on... hopefully i did ok haha...

well but the highlight of the day was in the nite.. y??? cos well we celebrated evan bdae!!! haha... ya had a pretty fun time... well the thing is evan treated us to a jap dinner t ajisen haha... me n nick that is... n we really had a fun time.... juz talkin crap n well stuff boys talked bout.... well wanted to catch the jet li movie.. but couldnt due to it bein too late.... so we did the next bes thing.... eating ben jerry haha.... we actually ate the merlion(the 2nd pic).. haha a 19.50 icecream wif lots of stuff on it haha... it was pretty cool n we really enjoyed it haha.... but guess one of the funnies was wen evan bought this drink.... n ouldnt open it!!! lol..... we went thru eeryone and in the end had to ge the lady to open 4 us haha.... so embarassing haha..... caught it all on vid lolz.... but nt puttin it here so if u wanna seethe embarrassing vid well juz ask me lolz..... well anyway..... we really had a fun time juz hangin out... laughin at each other n even laughin at evan who gets drunk without even drinkin alcoho... juz 0.5%passionfruit juice haha.... well thats all 4 nw ppl... weekend comin so is an end tomy preims.... woohoo... cant wait 4 it to end man haha... well tae care ppl...... nitez!!!! turning in 4 the nite haha!!!!!!

COMPLETELY

2007-09-12T17:14:00.000+08:00

completely... think tis is the song... frm facing the giants haha

haha found this video... really luv the song.... so here it is 4 u ppl.... hehe... nth much to blog except that i screwed up my phy reel bad again.... argh!!!!!! haiz.... the 1 sub i cannot overcome.... grrr.... wad to do wad to do??? well no point cryin over spilt milk.... so well a few more papers to go... anyway... if any of u gt the song... let me noe ok??? haha well ya.... thats all today... till nxt time hahaha...

haha dunno wen is the nxt time

2007-09-10T10:26:00.000+08:00

well back again.... today is the last day of the hols 4 me.... but ya.. tmr the nitemare begins.... as to the results i juz dun wanna think bout it... well on sat was quite interesting.... left church early den went 4 this family gathering at the turf club...the 1st time in a long time i ate so much seafood... well met my niece jans n my nephew jonathan as well.... yup... the same name as me... but a super hyperactive dude...had a hard time catchin him...well aft that.... my aunts started singin karoake n i gt challenged to a drinkin competition by my uncle.... but my aft 2 cups...i guess i won by default since in the end he got scolded by them 4 drinkin again... cos they didnt want to have to haul him out aft the drink n i guess they were afraid he would say some things while he was drunk... well i experienced that once wen he spoke to me while drunk in a pub.... nvr gonna forget that.... haiz.... but guess my nitemare wasnt over as my aunts wanted me to sing.... so did my cousins.... so i did the best thing.... running out of there!! well that was on sat....

nth much on sun except mayb 4 the fact that i had a wierd dream tis morning haha.... i dreamt of church!! can u believe it?? except tis church snl was at a bigger location... wif better facilities... unfortunately nt all of nissi light was there... guess onli a few ppl left... didnt even see mic bay!! well i wonder if that dream was somethin God wanted to show me bout cosbt... anyway ps.daniel in that dream started talkin to me bout findin a new plot 4 this church infrastructure to b built on.. sayin we gt too many ppl... all i rmb was sayin some chim details bout buildings wif him n we were discussing bout cosbt... pretty scary since i didnt noe wad i was talkin about... juz came out of my mouth... mayb its a premonition haha.... wont b the 1st time God talked to me like this n showed me such things... well gotta wait n see if this will come to pass as well..haha... ya guess i wrote alot today...cos 3 days combined in 1 haha... guess wont b able to blog anytime soon... cos of prelims till the 20/9 haizz.... back to studyin i guess... good luck to all prelim ppl n 4 poly ppl in their hols... enjoy haha... 4 those workin... work hard ya!!!

blinded

2007-09-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

thurs... well it seems that the hols is finally comin to an end.... haiz... means papers next tues.... arghh.... the prelims i dreaded so much is finally here.... boohoo... well anyway... i actually gt hit by a basketball today.. right in the face... i dont believe it!!!!! i was lookin in another direction...next thing i knew... ball in the face... right on my sensitive nose... well anyway... guess today was a super busy day... went frm place to place... lke all over s'pore... guess i sat on the train the most n.o of times today also... well guess today i also learnt some life lessons... we may have bondages that chain us to miseries of life.... but i guess its wen we finally break thru them do we realise hw blind our lives had been b4 that...aft readin a fren's blog... i started thinkin wad kinda christian i m... guess most of the time i m afraid that i feel like a lukewarm christian... wen i feel the fire.... its only a short time.... mayb the reason is cos i was too stuck up wif the past that i was blinded bout the present... but 1 thing i always noe is that wen i fall... i can always count on God n my true frenz to help me out and accepting me 4 who i m... nt juz another facade... yup.. guess wrote a little more than usual today... well take care ppl n enjoy the last sept hols.... jc2 ppl....treasure yr time well ya:)

te

2007-09-04T19:44:00.000+08:00

well back... n halfway thru the hols alr.... ya... but nt really hols 4 me lah.... study... ok so i did go queensway n sakura... but still nt much of a hols... in a way guess tis is my last hol also... ya anyway... was pretty unlucky ytd.... dunno how my com kena virus.... haiz haiz.... well hopefully i resolved it today.... ya... if not can cry alr haha... cos i use my com alot alot one... ya guess today was pretty mundane... juz studyin.... at tuition was pretty funny as everyone were so engrossed in our studies... at least i was daydreaming i guess... den my teacher started talkin to us bout fixin another tuition date... but as i was listening to my ipod i didnt really hear him at all.... den ltr like the gals were talkin to him n they looked at me i juz kept nodding... guess they thot i was listening... but i wasnt... its wasnt till the end that i asked that i realised the gals had changed to fri!! so haiz... another math tuition.... haiz... stress.... boring.... NEEDA DESTRESS!!!! ANY IDEAS HOW TO?? ya... kk super tired but back to studyin... so cya ppl enjoy the hols...

procratination(hope i gt the spellin rite)

2007-09-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

ya.. tis is sat... so i juz finished church guess i learnt on the deadliness of procrastination.... it really hurts our success... so mayb i shld start changin b4 i m doomed by it haha.... so tis r my 6 things tmr.....1) mug econs...2)do housework....3)interact wif my friends n family more.....4)mug hist....5)wash the toilet...ewwww.......6) call gladys 4 qt 4 the 1st time in a long time..... lolz.... ok i muz finish that...die die also muz... so can take control of my life.... well today i was at mac at the nite... studyin wif marv till 11.... so i went to but orange juice... man i tell u the lady was super scary.....the lady who served me lah... i asked 4 orange juice without ice... den she stared at me n said... don worry sir...WE NEVER PUT ICE IN ORANGE JUICE.... her eyes was so big i was like... ok so wad did i do nw... well... basically her face changing skills r scarily gd... haha hope i dun dream of her tonight.... brrrrrrrr... or i will b super scared lol... ya thats all today ppl..... no more procrastinating ya:)

one more day n 1 more time

2007-08-31T18:14:00.000+08:00

lately got exam.... so i didnt really blog much.... well the prelims is juz round the corner.... dunno how will i do 4 it.... but seriously..... rite nw i m feelin afraid of it comin.... yet at the same time i also cant wait 4 it to b done n over with.... n juz don think bou it... basically.... i guess the word 4 it is stress.... yup.... it can help push me i guess... but i guess too much isnt such a gd thing 4 me.... like sometimes it makes me do things that i will regret later.... but guess.... the truth is that i don hav the luxury to regret wad i've done.... wad i can do is move on from that.... stress also makes me pretty flustered n hot tempered at times... so if i vent my anger on anyone of u during tis period... i apologise 1st.... but if i do.... let me noe aft my exams haha... i promise i will make it up to u lol..... but don expect shark fin or anything lol.... ya...but i promise to make up 4 it 1 way or another.. lets juz see where things go from here..... ya... god bless u ppl.... n may he help us b the ppl we can b proud of...:):):)

finally gt time

2007-08-26T13:58:00.000+08:00

haha think a week nvr blog le... but wad to do???? no time haha.... mugging more impt rite.....anyway... ytd i went to church 4 a short while.... didnt really think could make it... but ya... God provided a way as usual... haha... ytd i saw my new niece.... ya her 1 mth old bdae i think thats wad they call it... haha i was super shocked wen my mom insisted i hold her haha... super scary cos like super scared will crush her or drop her.... a small new life... but it was an experience haha... ya.... wooohooo next week is the last week of sch.... so cant wait 4 that to end.... den its the prelims aft the hols... well lets see how ready i m 4 that wen i face it hehe... ya.... cant think of anything much to say... so i will stop at here haha.... back to studyin again i guess... haha cya ppl...

we will make it

2007-08-20T23:17:00.000+08:00

well... been a few days since i posted somethin... so i guess will talk bout the fireworks 1st.... ya i really enjoyed it... somemore got music also.... so its alot more interestin than b4 haha... ya... but it was the journey back home that was really tiring havin to squeeze thru all the ppl n all... haha.... ya... guess can say that i started studyin alr... everyday stay at the cc to juz study... really found its a gd environment to study as well.... so ya... gotta catch up on my work... but i guess its at tis time that ppl start feelin demoralised... can say sometimes i feel the same way... poly ppl... jc ppl... even sec ppl... all feelin stress.... as a result... sometimes it affects them... but guess wad i wanna say is that we r all in this tgt..... so we gotta hold on n press on as well.... ya... wen feelin down... juz find frenz to talk it out... even if they cant solve the prob... at least it feel better to voice out.... wadever happens.. noe that u neva walk alone.... wadz impt is that we try our best to reach our goals ya... so guess lets do our best... i will do my best... nt juz 4 my studie but to help the ppl around me as well.... tgt we will make it

another day has ended

2007-08-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

well i m back again..... ya.... today was a pretty rough day..... guess mayb cos it was a bored day.... tiring as well... another week has ended n another week closer to the As..... cant say i lookin 4ward to that..... but basically nw got a few dilemmas.... for example haha.... wad course to take at uni!!!! that is if i m able to choose a course that i like lol..... but another big prob is phy.... grrrr..... the 1 sub i hav neva ever conquered.... hate to thik of the best case senario of my studies bein a AAU result...... dont even dare to think bout that...... haha qhat will i giv 4 someone to help me or tell me hw to do phy.... i juz cant get it... mayb cos i nt a science person.... but dun wanna think bout it... now can only push forward ya..... well tmr is another sat... wonder wad that brings 4 me... bein such a rushy day.... got church den got fireworks..... but i'll leave it to tmr i guess... well cya ppl.... nitez..

l***

2007-08-16T17:39:00.000+08:00

welll i m back today..... supposed to go study nw... but i decided nvm.... don bother... guess very tired cos thot of too many things..... guess while thinkin i learnt somethin more bout l***...... as to wad is the next 3 letters i leave it to yr imagination.... welll guess can say l*** is a pretty complicated thing.... u r never ready 4 wad happens next.... even if u have a pretty good idea bout wad will happen next.... sometimes u juz dunno wad will crop up next... sometimes u feel good bout it... but sometimes u feel sad bout it..... sometimes even angry.... but i guess.... thats y we go thru it...... to learn a little more than ourselves.... haha..... rite nw i dunno wad is it i m bloggin bout.... juz sayi thins i will normally not say out haha.... haiz well later gt tuition at 7.30.... sianz...... but wad to do..... well i will leave it at that.....i guess wadever happens in l***..... wad matters is that u got to hav the strength to go thru it..... n believe it or not.... i believe we all hav it on us somehow or rather....

phew so exhausted

2007-08-13T18:09:00.000+08:00

finally it is over le..... can finally take a break...... haiz.... life gotta move on ya.... well decided to juz stay home tmr.... too tired to go sch haha.... n catch up on sch work i hope.... since like nw sch is so useless.... juz doin paper aft paper aft paper.... well guess u ppl get the idea.... i think it will b more productive at home.... but well..... cant say that to teachers so wad to do.... prelims approachin le n i think i m so dead 4 my A lvl.... haiz haiz stress alr AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGG.... well guess tis is the short short post 4 today... gotta get back to my work.... o btw if i dun reply any of yr sms its cos my hp no bat n i cant charge it cos the metal piece broke out... grrr... a piece of advice... dun buy sony ericsson hp... their charger is lousy.... well nw gotta find a replacement hp frm my mom.... hopefully she lend me her 3g hp hehe.... den i wont min a spoilt hp charger haha..... free upgrade..... yessss... hopefully....

another sat passed by again...

2007-08-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

well... its been another sat once again... feels like time literally flew by this week...myb cos it was onli a 2 day sch day that really sped things up since i simply hate studyin.... guess the reason i go there is to pass time n meet my classmates haha....haiz.... 80 days to the all impt A lvl.... gotta say i m alr pretty worn out... but guess gotta press on... since its my last few months of sch n den its ns..... but thats gotta wait i guess.... gotta survivie this 1st.... a few days back... my gp tutor asked me if i was ok cos i seemed exceedingly stressed out... but wad to do... well guess really enjoyed today's sermon... seriously thot will fall asleep... but ya guess got many occasions whereby i really gt discouraged.. even by the ppl closest to me... dun blame them cos gess they were indeed stating facts.... well... tis few days pretty busy also.... studies n thefuneral... tmr another day again... i hope i will b strong in my decision n hopefully make the right decision ya.... haha hope u guys enjoy the song n thks to the ppl who helped me wif the techno things like the background music n youtube upload.... thanks!!

i wonder is tis me???

2007-08-10T23:13:00.000+08:00

haha did this test today out of boredom.... kinda interestin....

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

now he is gone.....

2007-08-09T16:09:00.000+08:00

actually today i had wanted to post somethin on face-value... but i think i will post this instead.... today at around 3 plus.... i got an sms from my mom that my grandfather juz passed away...Guess i didnt really anticipate tis day... so i guess i will dedicate this post to him... He isnt my natural grandfather... for some of u... u may noe that i got 3 sides of grandparents.... He was my mom's dad wen she was given away at young 4 some traditional reason... She grew up under his care n i guess he is the 1 grandfather who i was closest to... i didnt really talk with my natural granddads as much as him.since apart from my maternal grandad.. he was the onli one i knew.. he was a lean strong man i remember.. always askin me bout my sch work since young wen i always went to his hse... i remember he will always say '' fulin... ne yao yong gong''...... mayb his encouragement really helped me....even though he wasn't really my grandfather... i grew to respect him n treat him like one.... i didnt get to see him at te end... the last time was weeks ago at the hospital.... i remember his last words were as above.... to work hard 4 my studies....now i juz wish i can hear him say that 1 more time.... i guess thats juz human nature.... we dont realise how much we appreciate somethin or someone till we have lost it...some of u may have taken someone for granted all tis time.... mayb its time we try to b more appreciative to them.... dun regret it only aft u have lost someone dear to your heart.... juz a simple thank you or kind gesture goes a long way...i guess today... national day will have an all new meaning to me... not the day our nation gained independence... but the day he went...... hope u all will enjoy yr national day.... all the best to all.... n juz wanna say thanks to all my frenz n family who have helped me in 1 way or another..esp to that special someone who i will nt say who... thats it 4 today....

face value....

2007-08-08T21:43:00.000+08:00

its a new day... so guess gotta move on... but 1st..guess juz wanted to juz say tis out...guess... rite nw some ppl deal wif ppl based on their qualifications.... sometimes i ponder... is a paper really so impt where we r.... arent we all human in the end??? all on tis earth... does a piece of paper really determine juz who we are.... that it limits us in wad we can n wad we wanna do??? haha... sometimes i question whether juz bcos 1 performs well in an exam... it makes him out to b exactly wad his paper says he can do... everyone is good at somethin... i guess thats wad we gotta find in us.... in the end... it doesnt matter wad the paper says... as long as we ourselves r sure of wad we want in life..... sometimes i ask myself if i judge ppl diferently based on their qualifications.... mayb wads the toughest for some... or easiest 4 some of us is to try to see ppl 4 wad they r... hmmm.... ya... guess thats a food for thought haha... btw... i really hate it wen they mix phy wif chem haha... but wad to do lol.... this post may b borin to some.... so juz look past it if it does... juz a piece of my mind... ya

NATIONAL DAY EVE!!!!!!!!!

2007-08-08T21:23:00.000+08:00

haha my 2nd post.... guess tis national day eve was kinda special haha... although the celebration was borin.... n long... the singin session was really warming... haha as most of my class juz swing tgt shoulder by shoulder... really juz felt the stress gone by the power of friendship... pretty hilarious to see some of them feelin awkward puttin arms over shoulders though haha... ya aft that i juz went wif my frenz go play pool haha.... super crowded... we were like totally shocked haha... but we managed to play haha.... guess today me n alvin super sway... team up n hit the black ball into the pocket for 4 consecutive gamez lol... onli at the wrong time haha..... but who cares... we had a gd laugh anyway haha.....in the games my name from jonathan bcome 'jo' 'ni' 'than'... dunno y lol...haha ya aft that our bunch of frenz juz sat down n slacked... talkin bout s'pore.... politics... guy stuff n teachers lol.... my new definition of gd teacher=slack teacher lol.... ya.... but guess we also did strange things lah... like makin videos of hiro teleportation haha... in mac lah.... everyone like lookin at us haha.... ya thats nt all haha... but lazy to type alr haha.... typin is so tirin lol.... n better nt bore anyone wif my day alr haha.... ya... HAPPY NATIONAL DAY PPL!!!!

there is always a first time everythin!!

2007-08-07T20:11:00.000+08:00

haha wow... i neva thot i will start a blog... well.... its nth much nw... hope that will change bein such a techno idiot lol.... so if u r seein this juz bear wif it 4 nw ya!! doin my best to see how to improve this lol..... guess its time to b juz a little more adventurous n tryin somethin diff.... lol instead of juz puttin everythin inside hahaha.....