aft a short time of 2 weeks... i can say that these 2 weeks are the most painful days of my lfe... n i do mean literally as well...for those that noe y.. plz do keep hush hush bout it... ytd i went for the barium check... even now i m still feeling the effects of it though... n although i wish i dun have to go thru it again... i guess i did make the most of it... i see for once the fragility of life haha... 1 day u can be competely well... the next.. u dun noe wad will happen... althiugh there are some funny experiences...like this nyp gal i met... who happens to be doing attachment at the hospital haha... finally i meet someone who really did go on to do radiotherapy altough i rarely heard of it haha..

well the results of my result wil be out on a mth... till den i can onli wait ba.... haiz... somehow now i feel like life is really boring u noe... like veryyday i m doin the same thing over n over n over again... on weekdays i go to work... i mwwt up wif frenz... saturdays i go to church... haoz... its like my whole life revolves around tis vicious cycle... that sometimes i juz wish i can get out of this.... but i guess my life is drawn into it...i wonder if a day will come wen i can juz put down all the things i have n juz do somethin different... juz getting away from all i have here.. not caring bout anything that is...

wadever happens... i will never noe... if my life is to be such that i m walking around in a circle... i juz pray that it will be a beautiful circle...if not.... i juz wanna break free..............................................question is if that is possible.....

hey.... i m back.... ytd national day n today its finally 1 of the more relaxing weekends i havb had for the weekends..... y? becos i m finally able to juz slack at home..... on fri i went to pick nick up from the airport.. it has been a long time since i have been to the airport.. n hearin wad nick had to say about his trip, i m kinda excited to even experience such a trip of my own.... either way... guess my trip to hong kong will be my 1st independent trip ever... n if all goes well.... hopefully i will leave at oct hehe..... hmmm... ytd we also went to pray for singapoer... but wad i felt really was very meaningful was pastor daniel saying that the church had to be united... i fully agreee wif him on that one haha... i mean i don get y some ppl like to distinguish wad kind of a christian m i?? whether anglican.... or wad... i mean does it really matter??? i juz don get tis ppl sometimes u noe... the way they fight among themselves bout whose church is god n which church are not...

haha but ytd i was shocked esp wen my cell grp went to mac t lot 1 n on the way out towards church i actually ran into aisyah.... haha she told me she was goin for a wedding so thats y she was wearing the traditional malay clothing..haha actually tis was the 1st time i saw her wearing that.. cos normally wen we hanged out she always dressed very.... erm like normal lor haha... dunno hw to put it... den in the nite i ran into 1 of my junior from pj... think she in j2 now... oh n my ex classmatee... reinstating once again juz how small the world really is u noe haha.... well enough of crapping for today... tmr if all goes well i will have a seoul garden meal for half price haha.... so lets see wad happens de.. cya ppl