after a long break here i am to blog again...... the reason i m blogging today is well haha... basically because i will be getting back my bariam test results tmr morning.... i dunno how will things turn out except that i noe that wadever happens, it happens for a reason.... on saturday, the sermon went somewhere along such lines... wad will you do wen things spin so wildly out of control that u lose track of wad u r doin.... wen u come to a situation wen u face a prob bigger than any you have faced before... seriously... i feel that the worries i have for tmr are unfounded.. i mean compared to so many ppl i noe out there that face harder things daily, wad m i to say that i am at a baricade in front of me?? haha my probs seems so small...

but s[eaking of it... i guess tis feel weeks in ns where u find u have nothing to do n u r rotting away... u cant help but think bout life seriously u noe haha.... 1 thing i learnt is how fragile we r as humans... fragile not juz physically but i feel more mentally.... ahaha... but den again somehow i feel that may be how we survived so long... mayb God build us to be fragile sentimental creatures... i mean that is the difference we have compared to all other creations n come to think of it... thats how we stand out isnt it?? haha think bout it?

haha mayb its time i changed how i blogged... i guess i m now movin away from writing a blog where i tell ppl what i go thru daily.. rather... a blog where i guess i can juz talk bout thoughs instead... hopefully i can add a philosophical touch to it haha... not that anyone reads it haha... sometimes i juz feel this blog is dead haha... mayb i ought to tell more ppl bout my blog haha... which leads to another question... y do ppl blog? is it an avenue to express one's thots? or rather a platform u hope ppl will see u in your inner state which u r not brave enough to show in reality?? n wen no one bothers to read what u r hoping they will read... wad den?? haha i wonder.....