thanks 4 the memories

well... the moment i came online...the 1st thing i realised was that i had many emails... but onli 1 really striked out... i read it n i guess... i was thankful to God for the strength he gave me... well guess this was the right thing to go n i want to do wads best 4 her... as to wad happens in the next few ys... i guess wad i can say is God will b done...but ya... 1 thing i do noe for my ans for whether my love stands is that i will choose to wait... waiting 4 the right timing wen He feels i m ready again..till den... i will b concentrate on doin wad i hav to do... well... i dun believe in thinkin too much abt all that has happened alr... except to move 4ward...n nw it is my exam... no more studyin for anyone else but myself... guess this is wad she n God n my frenz will want me to do rite? n becos i wanna do it myself haha... nw my qn is... wad course 4 uni??? lolz... well guess will find out eventually... being part n parcel of life... i may nt noe his plans 4 me... but i noe they r for the best... so i hope that everyone will have a gd day... n take care.... strive on ppl.... well... 4 a lvl ppl... lets chiong ok?? haha.. take care n God bless!!!!haha today short post... well nxt time got nice story will let u ppl noe again ok haha... till den... haha cya...

i m nt santa claus

well back again.. today guess did nth much in the morn... except goin 4 sch in the morn... the same nxt week as well... well aft that wen nick hse n we were late 4 church...well mayb partly becos nick too 15 mins juz to decide wad wear... juz kiddin dude... its not your fault... well can say today sermon was really different.. i really felt that it was somethin i really learnt frm... i dunno if this was a coincidence.. but somehow it was in conjuncture wif my week... n wad i talked to mic bay bout last nite... or shld i say this morn.. well gotta rmb i m nt santa claus.. dun have to carry a baggage on my back... ya... can say ytd was really nt a good day...so many things happened... n sadly to say i ended up like the carrot in my previous post..

well i may not noe wad will happen but 1 thing i m sure is that i m nt gonna stop makin an effort to right the wrongs i hav inflicted on the ppl i care for... its useless to cry over things that hav happened that i regret nw... but the reason life is worth living is that we noe we hav wad it takes to turn the tide of situations around if we really want to...4 that person i have really hurt.. i juz wanna say i m SORRY 4 wad i have done in not doin anythin at that moment when it mattered... ya... well ppl the message i wanna spread is that we may fall at times... but wad matters is that we get up... n an advantage we christians hav is a lovin God to carry us thru...no matter wad.... well 4 my frenz out there who r facing 1 prob or another... let me appeal to u to keep goin n dun give up cos more often than not... we tend to giv up at the critical moment when we r 1 step away frm success... this has been drilled in my mind... n the reason i m gonna keep movin n holdin on... well haha... tis is another side of me i rarely show... but ya thats all 4 nw... gonna turn in 4 the nite... all the best ppl.. n take care...

a story 4 everyone i guess..including me...

well back again.... lately someone has been sayin my post gettin emo haha.... so i decided i will nt post a emo one lolz.... well so i will juz say wad happened today.... well in sch today.... i got back all my results... well guess gotta say that i didnt really like it haha.... but its over... so left 1 month to chiong..hehe... today assembly we had a talk on how were we gonna face the upcoming exams...cos there r many different reactions to how we face probs n over time how we deal wif it... very often we find ourselves facing setbacks in life.... very often as nick said... we face failures... but as we face them we also mature.... but wad is maturing??? well frm wad i learnt... true maturity is when we are able to take responsibility for the probs in our lives n face it instead of running away or cowering in defeat...whether it is studies... or anything bout life... we r always on a par n we r always able to deal n overcome them.... the qn we gotta ask though is wad r the skills we have that enable us to counter our probs...everyone has a skill that he/she is gifted wif... the qn is whether or not we noe we have that skill....

well having a skill is not to take it 4 granted... cos skill=talent+hardwork+determination...... we may have the talent... but if we do not work on it... it will b lost.... well guess 4 many of us... whether the As or the Os... we r finally at the final leg... what we do nw will decide wad happens to us 4 the next few yrs of our lives... wif that i leave u ppl a story i heard today that i hope will help u ppl...

on a table there r 3 bowls of water.... in the water is a carrot... an egg n coffee beans in the cups respectively... they were all boiled 4 an hr... aft that... the end result of the 3 cups were observed... the carrot became soft.... the egg became hard-boiled n the coffee bean turned the water into coffee... the hot water represents the troubles we face in life... at the end of a crisis... r we like the carrot??? which goes into tough times strong but turns out weak n fragile.... or r we the egg... that go in soft n warm hearted... but come out feelin cold n angry at everything...becoming a heartless person who has becomed someone else frm our turmoil n lost who we truely were n used to b at peaceful times??? or r we like the coffee bean.... that enters hardship wif the determination to turn something bad into something good... making hot water into coffee?? the hotter the water... the better smelling is the coffee??? n maturing thru it...what happens to us wen we face hardship???.......... we shld b like the coffee bean n influence the situation instead of letting the situation influence us n our lives... so my question to u is... r u the carrot... egg or the coffee bean???

well thats it ppl hope u guys enjoy yr days n live life to the fullest.... cya n take care!!!

wel back again.... haiz today last day of my hols... den back to studyin again... cos i think gettin results tmr... pretty afraid... well wad can i say... today didnt really do much... juz watch movies all the way... luckily i rent movies or else haha... dunno hw le... but well william came my hse in the aft.... to collect his avatar... wah super tiring... burn 20 eps 4 him in 2 days... the funny thing is that he later tell me cannot watch.. can onli do so on tv.... haha.... usin dvd player.... haha burn so many disc 4 frenz le dunno y his so strange... but well prob solved so cant b bothered... lol... well... prelims over.... nw the real deal begins... its time to mug alr.... this is it.... n gotta pray a lot... really alot... feel like under alot of spiritual attacks... like nowadays very easy become angry... haiz mayb the stress.... so how??? gotta destress!!!!! haha... super bored.... well thats it 4 nw... think gonna turn in early tonite... ya... 4 once in a blue moon... or wil neva get well haha.. bye ppl...

american convention

well back again.... on sun was a pretty packed day... in the mornin met jac to go to tis ameica uni convention... well it was my mom's idea...since she spotted it on the papers so i went there... esp since i may actually hav to go overseas for my studies as well hah... we'll see what is God's plans 4 me... if its overseas den wel... gotta take a look 1st.... well over there at pan pacific hotel i was pretty interested in 2 particular uni... one of them called lincoln... te other wn wf a pretty long name.. wif somethin like strastsalvic or somethin like that... located at mitchiwi... dunno if its called that... but ya... kinda like it n well the environment is good too... so haha we'll see... esp the dorms... its awesome.. but the thing is that in america... its normally a 4 yr course haha... so a little longer... if i do take a double... well it could take longer.. haha... well... i guess pretty excited bout it...
well in the nite i saw someone i wishi didnt nt hav to see... i was at kinokuniya wif my family... n i saw him wif his wife there...guess was pretty afraid how my mom would react... but thank God nth happened... i went up to say hi though... but can see he wasnt really interested in talkin... mayb becos afraid of his wife seein me... if this was 1 yr ago...i wonder wad i would have done... i was very tempted to go slap her in the face esp aft seein my mom's eyes... but pretty glad i held back...so thank God 4 helpin me n this... well... wonder hw long tis will go on... but i m pretty tired of this... but well as my mom said... it has not started yet... n seriously... this is somethin i dun want to face in the future as well....... too tired to.... well... was in a pretty bad mood as a result... can see my mom was too... didnt really talk last nite wen we went home... well... its over... dun wanna think bout them... well enjoy yr week ppl... sry... but i felt i wanted to let it out... so ignore the last part if it irritates u... well thats 4 nw... byeee...

fri

haha yea changed the song again... this is by chris daughtry... yup.... well today was the start of the hols so i went ot wif my gd bro alex... ya hven gone out wif my bro 4 a log long time... so really caught up on old times... n today while at orcard wif him we also watched the movie rogue assasin.... ya if u got the time... do watch it...its nt a simple movie.. it gets u thinkin also... so i really enjoy tis... ya tmr class supposed to go to this island called pulao somethin 4 some fun learning journey.... too bad my koh fell ill at the last min... guess the whole class were really lookin forward to goin... but well... i hope that the next time it won't b on a sat... or haiz gonna have to miss it again.... ya... well today was a pretty weird but i guess fun day juz hangin out n talkin bout probs we have once again....like old times.... really miss the good old days... well.. today was also talkin to someone bout christ... didnt expect i will b talkin to her bout it.... but it all started wen i wished her happy birthday ya... so well mayb i helped plant the seeds... hopefully can bring her to church 1 day n save her... ya... cos our jobs is to spread the word rite haha... so i guess no matter wad we r down wif... savin someone juz makes yr day...yup... gotta pray haha.. 4 all our frenz... well ya guess this is it 4 today... dunno wad tmr will bring...well will leave it to tmr anyway... ok ya... cya ppl...

2-5am in the morn

ya.... i m back again.... well although my prelims r finally over... thought i will b super happy wif this release of stress.... guess mayb nt..... dunno is this post exam stress or juz that i thinkin bout somethin.... well cant ay i slept well last nite.... aft loggin off n talkin to some ppl.... juz started turing about in my bed.... dunny isit hat i juz couldnt sleep like that..... rmb the last time i was like that was last yr 1 day... but as to wad happened i dun wanna bring it up again.... so i did somethin i nvr thught i will do.... at 2 plus in the morn... i couldnt sleep... so i juz got up...

switch on the lights n started istening to christian songs instead of emo ones.... dunno y the change... bt i started havin the urge to read my bible.... so i took it up n suddenly juz started on the book of James... i guess as i looked thru the whole book of james(somone hinted me to read it) i juz started questioning so much of myself... so i took out a piece of paper n started jotting down wad i felt was wrong in my life n seeing wad was my attitude towards it... sadly i realised bout myself wad was wrong.... n i realisd the same words juz came up in my mind... there will b miracles if i believe... i feel pretty ps to say this but 4 the 3 hrs last nite... i nearly teared as i read.... n i actually prayed 4 so many things in my life.... but as nick says... 1 day probs is enough... i shld nt b think bout wad is tmr prbs...so ya... decided nt to think so much anymore.... nt wanting to b in control anymore... cos i believe he will guide me wif his wisdom n pick me wen i fall.... all i gotta do is believe n do my best in wadever he has given me... relationships... studies.. life... hope this testimony helps u guys in yr walk wif christ... ya... well take care ppl... n thanks to those who helped in 1 way or another... n 1 last thing i muz remember is quick to listen... slow to talk n slow to anger.. feel back in him again..ya..cya n enjoy ppl:)

strange post... cos nth better to do 4 yr info

finally wed is here.... well guess i m both happy n sad that the prelims is finally comin to a close... left wif mcq tmr... bt i can't understand y they had to put it in the aft... iritatin... gosch 4 1hr onli... petty redundant... well as some of u may noe... i was sick pretty much this whole prelims... the worst exam in my entire life... but luckily nt the last.. if it was the As... den can say i m dead... ya get the pic... well actually its during this kind of stressful periods that ppl get sick or even stressed haha... lately i read on this book.... seems pretty good so i decided to read haha... n i realised sometimes ppl get sick n cant get well despite meds??? well u noe sickness is due to bad memories n eperiences as well?? its through our emotions... sometimes wen u realise u keep gettin a recurring illness?? n no matter how many times u recover... it comes back???

well... research has shown that everytime... such illness are in fact linked to a memory we once had... a prob that we kept in us n didnt resolve...u may nt noe tis... bt in fact keepin probs to ourself n suffering alone not onli affects us emotionally bt mentally n physically as well... in most cases.... such things over long term leads to cancer as well.... so we hav to resolve our issues or find ways to get rid of them....n i mean it as in really t let it stay a prob in us anymore...

well u may find it hard to believe bt nof the ways is colour therapy... we shld stayin tuned wif blue more... which refers to unconditional love... asthe sayin its easier to forgive n forget... in fact... the colous we love n hate pretty much tells us juz wad gifts we hav n wad bad habits we hav... in tis case... the colour we hate!!! THE BEST CASE IS if u r able to like all colurs haha... the colour of the rainbow... u can try it yourself.. determine yr fav n least fav colours n find out wad they represent... it will tll u more bout yr personality haha... ya.... thats it 4 today... cant wait 4 tmr to end... then freedom till wed hahaha!!!!

masked

well.... back again... its sat.... hmmm guess can say today was pretty ok.... a happy day 4 me.... had a eally fun time hanging out wif someone... cant say who 4 security reasons haha..during lunch at bpp b4 goin to church today.....at church... i was told at the last min i was the icebreakerer.... n i didnt noe.. nearly had heart attack.... but thank god he provided me if the wisdom to get it over wif haha... ya well i guess today was better compared to the rest o the week since it was a prety rough week.... except fri nwards of course... i will always rmb the stomach pains i had to endure durin the exam grrrr... neva wanna feel it again... but haiz... u noe... its times like tis that it makes u realise juz how unpredictable lif can b??? u neva noe wad will happen.... but iend... hopefully its accordance to god will.... i guess no mattr wad prob u face... hether u happy...sad.... depressed or fed up bout it... i guess we shld nvr let our emotions get the better of us.... in such a case... askin 4 god wisdom is the best alternative....

wad rlly struck out 4 me today was wen ps song say we r alwalys wearing a mask... i m one to agree wif that... cos sometimes i really feel that i m wearin a facade... its onli wif the closest of frens that u r willing to let them see who u truly are.... n the reason 4 the facade is cos we r driven by fear rite?? i wonder if there will ever b a time we an all show who we really are 24/7.... guess will b workin to that day... shld it ever come.... cos in the end... well...........................

last papers of the week!!

haha back ppl... well today was the last sch day of the week n man can i say i m totally fatigued haha..... esp today... did hist n econs haha a 3hr n a 2.15hr paper... frm morn to aft... let me see... tis is the 1st time i ever written 6 essays in like 1 day.. no wonder they call it a killer paper haha.... wad is most embarrassing is that tis morn only 2 ppl turned up... me n my fren shawn since we r the onli ppl takin hist hha.... grrr the others r geog ppl lolz... well anyway... i learnt that writinh 4 essays in 3 hrs is no easy feat haha.... by the 3rd essay i almost gave up haha... but luckily i pressed on... hopefully i did ok haha...

well but the highlight of the day was in the nite.. y??? cos well we celebrated evan bdae!!! haha... ya had a pretty fun time... well the thing is evan treated us to a jap dinner t ajisen haha... me n nick that is... n we really had a fun time.... juz talkin crap n well stuff boys talked bout.... well wanted to catch the jet li movie.. but couldnt due to it bein too late.... so we did the next bes thing.... eating ben jerry haha.... we actually ate the merlion(the 2nd pic).. haha a 19.50 icecream wif lots of stuff on it haha... it was pretty cool n we really enjoyed it haha.... but guess one of the funnies was wen evan bought this drink.... n ouldnt open it!!! lol..... we went thru eeryone and in the end had to ge the lady to open 4 us haha.... so embarassing haha..... caught it all on vid lolz.... but nt puttin it here so if u wanna seethe embarrassing vid well juz ask me lolz..... well anyway..... we really had a fun time juz hangin out... laughin at each other n even laughin at evan who gets drunk without even drinkin alcoho... juz 0.5%passionfruit juice haha.... well thats all 4 nw ppl... weekend comin so is an end tomy preims.... woohoo... cant wait 4 it to end man haha... well tae care ppl...... nitez!!!! turning in 4 the nite haha!!!!!!

COMPLETELY

completely... think tis is the song... frm facing the giants haha

haha found this video... really luv the song.... so here it is 4 u ppl.... hehe... nth much to blog except that i screwed up my phy reel bad again.... argh!!!!!! haiz.... the 1 sub i cannot overcome.... grrr.... wad to do wad to do??? well no point cryin over spilt milk.... so well a few more papers to go... anyway... if any of u gt the song... let me noe ok??? haha well ya.... thats all today... till nxt time hahaha...

haha dunno wen is the nxt time

well back again.... today is the last day of the hols 4 me.... but ya.. tmr the nitemare begins.... as to the results i juz dun wanna think bout it... well on sat was quite interesting.... left church early den went 4 this family gathering at the turf club...the 1st time in a long time i ate so much seafood... well met my niece jans n my nephew jonathan as well.... yup... the same name as me... but a super hyperactive dude...had a hard time catchin him...well aft that.... my aunts started singin karoake n i gt challenged to a drinkin competition by my uncle.... but my aft 2 cups...i guess i won by default since in the end he got scolded by them 4 drinkin again... cos they didnt want to have to haul him out aft the drink n i guess they were afraid he would say some things while he was drunk... well i experienced that once wen he spoke to me while drunk in a pub.... nvr gonna forget that.... haiz.... but guess my nitemare wasnt over as my aunts wanted me to sing.... so did my cousins.... so i did the best thing.... running out of there!! well that was on sat....

nth much on sun except mayb 4 the fact that i had a wierd dream tis morning haha.... i dreamt of church!! can u believe it?? except tis church snl was at a bigger location... wif better facilities... unfortunately nt all of nissi light was there... guess onli a few ppl left... didnt even see mic bay!! well i wonder if that dream was somethin God wanted to show me bout cosbt... anyway ps.daniel in that dream started talkin to me bout findin a new plot 4 this church infrastructure to b built on.. sayin we gt too many ppl... all i rmb was sayin some chim details bout buildings wif him n we were discussing bout cosbt... pretty scary since i didnt noe wad i was talkin about... juz came out of my mouth... mayb its a premonition haha.... wont b the 1st time God talked to me like this n showed me such things... well gotta wait n see if this will come to pass as well..haha... ya guess i wrote alot today...cos 3 days combined in 1 haha... guess wont b able to blog anytime soon... cos of prelims till the 20/9 haizz.... back to studyin i guess... good luck to all prelim ppl n 4 poly ppl in their hols... enjoy haha... 4 those workin... work hard ya!!!

blinded

thurs... well it seems that the hols is finally comin to an end.... haiz... means papers next tues.... arghh.... the prelims i dreaded so much is finally here.... boohoo... well anyway... i actually gt hit by a basketball today.. right in the face... i dont believe it!!!!! i was lookin in another direction...next thing i knew... ball in the face... right on my sensitive nose... well anyway... guess today was a super busy day... went frm place to place... lke all over s'pore... guess i sat on the train the most n.o of times today also... well guess today i also learnt some life lessons... we may have bondages that chain us to miseries of life.... but i guess its wen we finally break thru them do we realise hw blind our lives had been b4 that...aft readin a fren's blog... i started thinkin wad kinda christian i m... guess most of the time i m afraid that i feel like a lukewarm christian... wen i feel the fire.... its only a short time.... mayb the reason is cos i was too stuck up wif the past that i was blinded bout the present... but 1 thing i always noe is that wen i fall... i can always count on God n my true frenz to help me out and accepting me 4 who i m... nt juz another facade... yup.. guess wrote a little more than usual today... well take care ppl n enjoy the last sept hols.... jc2 ppl....treasure yr time well ya:)

te

well back... n halfway thru the hols alr.... ya... but nt really hols 4 me lah.... study... ok so i did go queensway n sakura... but still nt much of a hols... in a way guess tis is my last hol also... ya anyway... was pretty unlucky ytd.... dunno how my com kena virus.... haiz haiz.... well hopefully i resolved it today.... ya... if not can cry alr haha... cos i use my com alot alot one... ya guess today was pretty mundane... juz studyin.... at tuition was pretty funny as everyone were so engrossed in our studies... at least i was daydreaming i guess... den my teacher started talkin to us bout fixin another tuition date... but as i was listening to my ipod i didnt really hear him at all.... den ltr like the gals were talkin to him n they looked at me i juz kept nodding... guess they thot i was listening... but i wasnt... its wasnt till the end that i asked that i realised the gals had changed to fri!! so haiz... another math tuition.... haiz... stress.... boring.... NEEDA DESTRESS!!!! ANY IDEAS HOW TO?? ya... kk super tired but back to studyin... so cya ppl enjoy the hols...

procratination(hope i gt the spellin rite)

ya.. tis is sat... so i juz finished church guess i learnt on the deadliness of procrastination.... it really hurts our success... so mayb i shld start changin b4 i m doomed by it haha.... so tis r my 6 things tmr.....1) mug econs...2)do housework....3)interact wif my friends n family more.....4)mug hist....5)wash the toilet...ewwww.......6) call gladys 4 qt 4 the 1st time in a long time..... lolz.... ok i muz finish that...die die also muz... so can take control of my life.... well today i was at mac at the nite... studyin wif marv till 11.... so i went to but orange juice... man i tell u the lady was super scary.....the lady who served me lah... i asked 4 orange juice without ice... den she stared at me n said... don worry sir...WE NEVER PUT ICE IN ORANGE JUICE.... her eyes was so big i was like... ok so wad did i do nw... well... basically her face changing skills r scarily gd... haha hope i dun dream of her tonight.... brrrrrrrr... or i will b super scared lol... ya thats all today ppl..... no more procrastinating ya:)