the desert i was talkin bout... at the beginning... n below... 10 mins later haha n alot to finish.. sian liao haha
haha jac kena BRAIN FREEZE!!! LOL...
finally we about to finish... n my stomach cant take it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!

back... ytd... we celebrated fiona bdae... which shi feng planned haha... she was surprised so i guess it was a success... ya n well seein the probs she is facing... hope she will stay strong haha n wad we did hopefully helped cheer her up a little... at least..marvin wanted to talk to me bout some prob i faced... so bro... really appreciate it.. but i m ok alr.. haha ya... so thks for the concern dude!!!. aft that i went to meet my frenz haha..on the way i actually met my ex sch mate shi min haa.. she really changed alr... n i actually realised she lives quite near to me haha... wonder if we will meet again lolz.... but nth much haha xcept i saw my cousin aft a long time.so it was pretty wierd lol.....

today i went to this australia uni open house... n ya... i saw many uni... n 1 really caught my eye... murdoch uni... somehow tis kinda stood out from the rest... i wonder y... haha.... well i will see if this is wad He wants... since ya i got rejected from all the spore unis.... but either way... since i was wif jac.... haha in the aft we went to chill... b4 goin back to work tmr haha... ya we went to cineleisure played pool n we went to tis hk cafe i think n had ouur meal there...

den jac ordered tis desert haha... like a castle lol... we had a hard time eating it lah lolz... at the end... we both had brain freeze n were like totally full haha... but it was nice though lol... n when we finished it... we felt really happy haha.. dunno y?mayb we crazy le... till nw i still shivering lolz.. from the cold,.. so its back to work again... well cya ppl... for ppl wif exams all tjhe best... those wif hols.. good for ya...cya ppl!

i've tried my best... i've done all i could... but i guess to u... good will never b enough.... sometimes... sometimes i wonder... y?? y muz u put me down in all that i do... in all i wanna b? m i really so bad?? that i m not strong enough to handle wad is happening? to comprehend wad i have to face in the future? i noe that i m not that strong... n sometimes i wonder y shld i put in so much effort?? wen all my efforts r never enough for u... all i hope.. is that u will tell me that its enough... that u r proud of me?? i noe that i m not as intelligent as the rest... not as fast... mayb even naive to u.... but u noe wad... if thats who i m to u... all i can say is that i m sorry... sorry that i m not the person u wanted me to be... ok! SORRY...

well... tis is the 1st time in a long time u will c me blog on a tuesday haha... ya.. i m on leave tis week... so i will start work proper next tues also haha... well... i finally noe my posting... but i will b workin at thomson around that area... although its a good thing i got a direct bus there so its not that bad.... man i gotta say... its a big difference for me payin bus concession now compared to a long time ago... last time i was a student... i onli paid 27.50... now i gotta pay 61 bucks!!! n that is higher than poly ppl lah... lucky them grrrr...... but the gd thing is that i finally noe the feelin of havin my own office haha... workin directly under tis officer... basically i m somethin like a secretary haha...

on pop day... i can say it was the day we were all wAitin for... n thank God everythin went swell... except tis caogeng guy who fainted haha... he was the onli guy lah.. on thurs in the morn we went to de-kit... which means clearing out the stuff haha... n for my bunk... it became a fun session... since the whole floor of our room was wet... we basically played like there was no tmr... n i was tao pok by my frens lah... imagine 5 fat guys lyin on top of u...sandwichin u between the floor... but well... everyone got their just desert nonetheless..haha... in the nite i went to seoul garden wif my squad mates so ya... we celebrated...

on fri my squad had a bbq at east coast park haha... so it was great to have a gathering once more haha.....ya gonna miss those jokers haha...the funniest was i saw jason's(the acjc one) twin bro justin haha... damn funny... i was eating my food wen i saw jason walkin from the carpark... i found it strange that he wore a different shirt n i rmb him cookin also... den that guy waved at me... so i waved back wif my eyes following him... suddenly in my view there were 2 jasons!!!! i was like wad the!!! i thot i seein double den i rmb he had a bro haha... wow...wad an experience..., n since i wil b stuck wif him for this 2 yrs since he was sent to the same department as me!!!! mayb its GOd plan...

well...on last sat... where we celebrated mic bay bdae... at 1st say wanna do it on vesak day so that wont dirty the church... but we still dirtied it nonetheless haha... y?? well i simply suggested puttin her cake at her face cos haha it looked like a pie... next thing i noe.. suyin really did it haha...next thing i noe... well the bdae gal slammed cake at my face..fiona also lah..i also dunno y
? i so innocent lolz...i also had fun chasing li xin to the toilet to make him haha so ya.. well guess we had fun... cleaning up of course... i rmb wen i went home my face was like so oily haha..

well i wonder wad to do tis week... most likely juz relaxin n buyin stuff haha.... n savin my money haha... since now i no more free food lolz... well.. thats it for now...so cya soon....

ps.hope the uni will reply bout somethin soon...

i will rmb i always have a choice

after some time... i m back again... next week is my pop... which means that i will b posted out alr... as to wad will i b doin... guess wont b sayin... except its a 9 to 5 job workin for someone lor... and as the pop comes... its also time for me to keep a promise tat i had made...y???

the reason is becos i once told God that while i didnt really want the post i m at... but if it is his will that i will b doin it... i will do it... n keep the promise that i hav been running away from for these few months... mayb some of u will realise that i may b a little different this few months... well... its cos i dunno... i guess i m finally tired of wearing a facade wen facing ppl... this few months has been one of the toughest months of my life... it can b considered one of my most down moments... other than the bad results of my As... and as how mic bay had said on how uncertain my life was... i also learnt some things bout my past as well... how my mom actually told me some things that i didnt wanna noe... but i had to noe in order to prepare in the future...its really complicated and somehow i doubt i can do it? but still... it has to come i guess..

i really wanna take tis chance to thank the ppl who has been so patient wif me tis few months.. n actually accompanying me wen i needed a break... even though i noe they have a very busy life... ppl like marvin... jac... will... haha well u guys noe who u r...

as to the promise i made? well i gave him my word that if i really got this post.. it will mean that he wants me to forget bout everythin in the past... n have a new focus in life... that i will hav to let go of everythin and everyone that will prohibit a change... as the movie i watched ytd... second chance.. its time i leave it completely to him n take tis 2nd chance myself..not juz for him... but myself as well...

i myself feel that tis will b pretty hard.. but as the bible says... trust him n fear nothing but the God almighty right? haha.. soi'ss see how tis goes... well if u got to read tis post... mayb u r lucky... mayb not haha... i leave it up to u.. well cya all..