relevation i seek to find

Bread Upon the Waters

Cast your upon the waters, for after many days you will find it again.
Give portions to seven, yes to eight, for you do not know what disaster may come upon the land.
If clouds are full of water, they pour rain upon the earth.
Whether a tree falls to the south or to mthe north, in the place where it falls, there it lie.
Whoever watches the wind will not plant;
whoever looks at the clouds will not reap.
As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you do not understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.
Sow your seed in the morning and let not your hands be idle, for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will do equally well.

Remember Your Creator While Young
Light is sweet, and it pleases the eyes to see the sun.
However many years a man may live, let him enjoy them all.
But let him remember the ways of darkness, for there will be many.
Everything to come is meaningless.
Be happy, young man, while you are young, and let you heart give you joy in the days of your youth.
Follow the ways of your heart and whatever your eyes see, but know that for all these things God will bring you to judgement.
So then, banish anxiety from your heart and cast off the troubles of your body, for youth and vigor are meaningless.

Ecclesiastes 11: 1-10


this is the 1st time i actually quote a verse from the bible. the reason is simple really... the reason i put it down is because this was the 1 chpt that has been in my mind all these while.. guess for a few months... but a verse i did not really understand the meaning... but if its a verse God keeps tellin me... i can onli guess there is a secret meaning... and after all the events that has been happening these few weeks in my life especially yesterday morning... i can actually say that i have finally understood a little of wad God is telling me thru this verse... & its true... mayb He knew all along and was preparing for me all these time... sincerely i cannot say...

recently there are a few events that i regret deeply how i handled... i juz could not take it anymore and it juz came out on saturday morning.... I wasnt really ready or really up there wen i went to church... but the sermon yesterday really hit the spot at the question i had been asking myself all these while...the difference between building character & reputation... Finally i can safely say that the one thing i had been searching for since i became a christian has finally been revealed... for so many yrs i have lost it... that i actually forgot wad it was... i actually felt life was really not really there... i was not really living my life... i could not really commit myself to anything because i knew i was not entirely ready.... sometimes wen the world cannot accept who we really are.. we end up being wad the world wants us to be... & i lost sight of who i was on the inside..

After wad happened ytd... it was like suddenly all the truth abt me were all said to me.... n by tis person who God truly knew i will be afected by...

That person is right and i hope that my actions now will show that i can change.. that i can find my character once more... & not living like everything is out of my hands..i guess i hav tis urge to apologise to the ppl i hurt because i was lost in life.. although i guess its too late for some now... because i lost a part of me... it ended up in me missing out so many things in life...but wad is done is done.. n i guess i can onli hope that wen i do find out who i really am inside... i can finally find this peace within one self that so many have seeked... but few of us ever find..................................................